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I'm such a weird person on the inside.
I really, really, really am.
And i've always kind of known it.
I just read the Perks of Being a Wallflower for the FIRST time, omg yes I know it's like ssooo old and scene and i'm just now reading but fuck off.
And i think it just REALLY made me realize how messed up my insides and thought processes are.
If Charlie were a real person, i think we'd be the greatest of friends.
Something that bugs me about myself is how easily i look to people as being disposable.
Say one thing that bugs me or do something that annoys me. You'll be gone forever. Bam. Like that.
I guess it's not that I even find them disposable. It's the extremity of which I look to avoid discomfort.
There are so many things and people that I just DON'T like. Some for the pettiest reasons, but they're there.
There are a lot of people from my past that i miss a lot. There are a lot of people that I'm not even sure what went wrong or happened.
I hate change. I hate that everyone has changed and is changing and i still feel the same for the most part.
For the most part.
I miss Laura. I miss Schuyler. I miss Kim. Some days when i'm super fucked in my head i miss Ashley. I miss Bum. I miss Adulis. I miss Tricia. I'm even starting to miss Tiffany, which along with Bum and Adulis is the absolute worst of it.
These people that I miss, it's not because they're dead or because they're inaccessible.
It's just that they're different. They've changed. They're changing.
And it's not that it's bad of them. I'm sure every one of these people are so happy right now, at this moment. But i just feel like they're gone to me. They're not the same as they were before.
And I don't want it to happen to Tiffany and i'm so scared that it is.
Media sucks. Especially all this stupid, technological media.
Facebook and MySpace and Twitter and Tumblr and even Xanga and LiveJournal and everything like it.
Why do we type here instead of writing in a journal? To gain acceptance from SOMEONE out there? To have someONE to agree with us? To let the world know how cool we are and know that we have a deep thought now and then? For attention?
And why did i say "we" instead of "me"? So i don't look and feel stupid for just thinking these things about myself?
I hope Jenna wakes up soon.
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[05 Oct 2008|10:58am] |
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So, we raped Oregon last night. It was tons of fun. We had amazing seats.
We were on about the 25th-ish yard line; fifth row up. SUPERB. Next week is Arizona, but it's an early game.. bleh.
As of this week, we have moved up one spot and are now eighth :( sigh. So, so sad.
Dodgers won last night too! Swept the Cubs. Yay :D I actually really, really like baseball now, since i went to that Dodgers game. Thanks Delan, for signing me up to go :)
I'm watching the freaking GameCast for the Colts game since it is, once again, not airing here. They're tied :'(
Today SHOULD be a semi-productive day... But i think i'm supposed to hang out with Aaron since he's flying back in from Texas today.. I want to. But i don't want to. I have shit i need to do. For real. :(
The past few days have been great! Staying busy, hanging out with my amazing bffz.. Alan, Joseph and Delan are the greatest friends I could've asked for here (:
I had my FIRST college midterm on Monday! I'm pretty sure I kicked it's fucking ass, though I won't know until Friday :( I studied so much the night before, lol. Stayed up til 3:30. I wonder how Taj Gibson did? Hah.
Wednesday was simply amazing. MSI were.. good. Not the best show i've seen; they played lots of new stuff from "If." But the crowd was surprisingly small and chill. I was just happy to finally meet all the SoCal MSI kids ! These people who i've "known" and talked to for years... i finally got to meet! And take part in a show with and take pictures with all of them. I had so much fun. I danced my ass off... and Tweek [his real name is Nick; i'm still not sure what to call him?] drove me back home and we ate Del Taco (:
Friday night was EXCELLENT. Mmmmhmm..
"The birds are smiling and the sun is singing." Delan and Joseph know what's up.
HASTE THE fucking DAY are going to be here.. in LOS ANGELES.. on October 16th ! Haste the Day. One of my favorite bands. From Indy [technically Carmel]. Here. In LA. With Norma Jean. This month. I'm so ecstatic.
Then... the next night.... Anberlin with Scary Kids Scaring Kids ! At the same venue.
I love L.A. They get all the amazing shows. God damn.
And on that note... I really feel like the old Teresa is surfacing.
On the way home with Tweek, I don't remember having laughed and smiled so much in the longest time. He made me so fucking happy. We listened to and rocked out to and sang along to Korn the entire way back from Anaheim.. and it made me so happy. THAT'S what i used to be. A happy, bubbly metal head who lived for shows and amazing music and sports.
And that's what i'm becoming again.
Since all my shits at home, i downloaded the entire [good portion of..] the Korn discography and have been listening to them since Thursday, finding myself again. I've been on the search for more amazing shows to go to.. and now since i have a job, i won't feel so guilty for spending $20 here and there to go to them! Our football team is kicking ass. BASKETBALL pre-season is starting like... this week!!!! There's a.. couple.. of cute boys in my life right now, lol. Yes. Pre-Tyler Teresa is surfacing.
Get ready, world.
Nonetheless..
I still miss him a lot. A lot, a lot. More than anything else in Indianapolis.
sigh. Whenever i'm not busy or with other people, i kinda have this empty feeling.
Like right now. It's starting to happen.
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[06 Sep 2008|10:31am] |
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I'm mad there are 10x more parties at USC on Thursday nights than on Friday.
But it'll never top Tuesday night. God damn, it was amazing. Lemon drops, Teletubbies, water fountains.. lmao. Check out my pictures on Facebook.
I wish just ONE night would go by that i didn't dream about Tyler. Just one. ): I hate it. The one this morning was actually good though.. so good.. and so real ): The night before's was awful. I'm so tired of it though. I'm turning into an insomniac because i don't WANT to sleep so i don't have to dream. I want my mind back. I hate KILLING myself to stay busy, completely wearing myself out.. just to be okay, not even necessarily happy all the time, but just okay.
I went to Santa Monica yesterday. So much fun. Camille, Jenna and I rode the roller coaster.. it was so cute. Crunchwraps on the Santa Monica pier are $4.75 plus tax. Ouch. The beach was wonderful.. a lot warmer than Manhattan.
We came back and i tried to nap.. didn't happen. Camille, Jenna, her friend, Kaitlyn and I went to the volleyball game. They dominated of course. It was fun. I love our fight song and will never tire of hearing it.
We came back and hung out and got readyy.. then went to the row.. and.. yeah, cue the beginning of this entry.
I have a lot of reading to do, tons.. and i don't want to.. so i'm updating my Xanga. And will probably read Breaking Dawn. And maybe go to the pool.. anything to keep from doing that reading.
I'm supposed to go around LA today with Joseph and Delan (: We thought there was a soccer game today, but it's tomorrow... I'm excited. They're #1.
Do any of you who MAY happen to still read this live in LA? Seriously. Take me out.
Here I'm pinned between darkness and light
Bleached and blinded by these nights
Where I'm tossing and tortured 'til dawn
By you, visions of you then you're gone.
The shock bleeds the red from my face
When I hear someone's taken my place.
How could love be so thoughtless, so cruel?
When all, all that I did was for you.
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[20 Aug 2008|08:13pm] |
USC is brilliantly amazing.
Saying bye to Tyler was definitely the hardest part of my yesterday.
Those last hugs and kisses... sigh.
We exchanged parting gifts.
He gave me his skateboard, and he gave me back my blankie he got me for Christmas.. that i had given backt to him, hah. (:
I got him a web cam, and also gave him my blankie we always use to snuggle at my house. I also gave him my class ring.
USC is wonderful.
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[13 Aug 2008|01:22am] |
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I want to read Eclipse, but Bum just called me to inform me that the US plays Nigeria at 2am, so i need to stay alert until then..
Sooo, i'm upset about this gymnastic crap.
BRING BACK MY CARLY PATTERSON! Dear God. Just kidding. They beasted anyway.. just wish Alicia's nerves would have been a little calmer. Shawn Johnson is amazing.
Where'd i leave off... Thursday..
Friday morning, i went to Steve's! [Lentz] and we made amazing cookies and watched Anchor Man.
I grew some balls around three and went to the Rathskeller to get my check.. which i had Wayne go in to get for me, lol.
Tyler blehness, i think . I don't quite remember, or want to remember.
I went to Yats with Prentice around six or so... i went to Jenna's a little after eight to watch the opening ceremonies for the Olympics. That was nice; i love her so much. A TRULY GOOD friend she is (: We were in tears, though, when i left because that could have been the last time i'll see her until Christmas.. or even NEXT SUMMER ): That is, if she doesn't come visit, which hopefully she will. Supposed to hang out with her Thursday morning, since it's her ONLY day off until she moves to Purdue on Sunday ):
Saturday, hhmmm.. i don't remember..
Oh yeah, i cleaned and stuff in the morning. Tyler came over between mentor stuff and the purple/white soccer game, and it was superb (: . When he left for the game, ironically, Bum called me and asked if i wanted to go. So, we did. Tyler was there. We spoke briefly. Eh. Bum and i didn't stay. We went back to his house and ate, then threw the frisbee around. I went to Cody Herring's around 8:30... Tyler said he'd come back over for a lazy night, but he wouldn't fucking tell me when.. so of course, shit escalated from there because he was being short with me in his texts, he wouldn't answer his phone or my questions... so i ended up leaving Cody's and came home, still waiting for a freaking response.. which i got nearly two hours after he'd originally said he was coming. Things got super, super bad ): and stupid.
So i went back to Cody's and more people came, and fun was had!
He ended up calling back and i ended up in my car for nearly 1.5 hours arguing, etc. I'm thinking that was possibly the climax of our relationship this summer..
When we got off the phone, I went back inside and had fun (:
Sunday.. was an odd day. He was still upset and stuff, and was being all distance and aggravating to me. My mom decided to grill out, which was great 'cause she hadn't all summer. I invited him over, and he declined.. still being short.. but as the day wore on, i kind of let him be and he came around. We talked on the phone for a bit, then online. Things seemed okay (:
Earlier in the week Joe had invited me to his softball game, so i stuck to that... it was fun, actually. I sat with all the moms, lol, but it was entertaining nonetheless. I felt a little awkward though 'cause Nick [Lenard]'s mom was sitting about fifteen feet away.. i didn't know if i should go say something or not.. Eh. Tyler was texting me, asking me about my Econ stuff, etc.. but i just saw it as a diversion to see what i was doing, haha.
Joe and I went to Steak n Shake afterward.. then sat at his house for a bit.. then we went to Todd's and hung out with a bunch of people, Casey included, which was nice 'cause i haven't talked to her in forever. I went home not too late.
Mooonday...
I woke up around seven to make sure Jaime got ready for school, and got on his way. Tyler and i texted sporadically then i fell back asleep... and slept until like eleven! Which for this summer, is nearly a record for me.
I went to Joe's around one to hang at his pool with he and other people. It was fun (: Tyler and I had plans to go shopping when he got out of school, but i wasn't planning on it going though. But he actually called me right after school! He had to go get his passport, then he'd be over.
It was awesome! We went to Circle Centre and shopped and shopped and shopped (: We picked out clothes for each otherrrr, and it was just so cute. Then we came back to my house and just hung out and snuggled, etc (: It was great. He went hommmme.. then he called me before he went to bed (: sigh. So great.
Todaaayyy... Tuesday..
Woke up early. Jaime. Text Tyler. Drifted back to sleep, and slept late.
I went through my huuuge stack of USC stuff and got rid of some of it. Sat around, relaxed. Mom came home. Took her to Olive Garden for her birthday which is tomorrow, or actually.. today. We came home; Tyler was waiting here (: Another great evening! sigh. ughhh! I'm so freaking happy and i just hope it doesn't end. He called me before bed and it was just as normal as it ever was (: He's sweeping now 'cause he has school in the morning (: I won't see him today 'cause of Mayhem--but he said he'd see me Thursday!
After Saturday night, it feels like every thing's falling into place. Idk. I don't want to get my hopes up like i have so many times this summer.. but.. Idk. I leave in exactly a week. And i hope we're official by then.. because right now, things just seem so right. There have been so many times this summer where we're basically back together, but... now... Ugh. The past few days have been superb, and i love this god damned kid so much. I love him, i love him, i love him. It's disgusting (:
Today should be fun. I won't get to see him all day, and probably won't talk either... BUT i will be seeing SLLLLIPPPKKNNOOOOTTT!!! This is about freaking eight years in the making! And i am FINALLY going to see them! Finally. Joe and Ryan should be by here around noon to pick me up.
Good shit.
Forty minutes til the soccer game.
UGHHH!
I feel so elated though (:
I typed a lot.
If you read all of this, you're tight!
Or have no life.
I find that by typing in my Xanga, i can actually remember my days... as opposed to the days that i DON'T type about, and i don't remember at all.
Good day.
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I'm sitting at home, and it looks glorious outside... and I don't mind at all.
Tuesday... Ohhh, Tuesday.
Brion took me to lunch, and it was awesome.
I had to work at five, and ironically Sam came to visit me ! Manager Dave MAple and i sort of got into it.
I had about an hour left of my shift, and i walked out.
Yeah.
Sam took me to a bar on Mass Ave, Front Page to be exact. Tyler and i were on shaky terms. I got hammered. So the night definitely did not go well from there. Phone drama with Tyler. It was horrible.
Sam took me back to my car at the Rathskeller, and obviously I could not drive. Luckily.. and not so luckily.. Dave was walking out of the restaurant at the same time. Sam left me with him.
Vierka came down and drove my car to my house. Dave drove me home. I was a wreck. He called Mayra, and she came over immediately. She didnt know i was drinking, apparently... she thought i was just super upset, which i was..
She left.
Tyler ended up coming over for a couple of hours.. He left around 4am. It was fantastic.
Yesterday I woke up and cleaned the house, to hopefully butter my mom up she got home because Mayra had called her apparently expressing her concern :-\
Mr Blythe called and we arranged a very overdue hang out session. I finished cleaning up, got ready, and left.
Tyler called me on my way over there, and that was good (:
I lots of fun with Ryan, i love him so much. He's just someone who i can pick up where we left off last. I love our friendship. We watched 21, played some soccer and frisbee, ate.. it was just fun. He talked to me about Tyler a lot, and about Kelsey too. While our relationships had significant differences, it's nice to have someone to really relate to.
He kept me distracted and didn't let me text Tyler. And sure enough, when we came in from outside.. Tyler had texted me (: So that was good.
A little after six, I went to Bum's. We went to the school to run, and ended up just kicking a ball around on the fields, lol. We went back to his house and had amazing spaghetti and homemade rice cripsies.. mmm... Thennn we watched the Barcelona game and Balls of Fury, hah. I fell asleep. I woke up and we watched more tv. I left arrrrouunnnddd.. ten.
Tyler called while i was on my way home (:
I went home, showered, called him back. We talked for a bit and then we were both going to readddd.. i'm 3/4 done with New Moon! I should be reading now, actually. I love it.
I woke up extremely tired this morning, and i'm not quite sure why.
I lied in bed and ready for a good hour or two. Tyler called arrrrround.. 11, and asked if he could come over (: Sooo he brought McDonalds and we aaaate.. and we cuddled and snuggled and napped. (: It was amazing. I feel fantastic and i feel like things are going in a good direction!
He had to go back to school to do more BDTV stuff, then he has mentor stuff later.
So i was scheduled to work at five today.. but Dave had called me twice yesterday, and i answered neither time.
I just called him and he said he covered my shift for today... and i'm going to find someone to work for me Sunday. So... Tuesday was my last day, i guess, lol.
I need to go get my check, badly. I have 0 money. I just don't want to have to go talk to Dan. I don't want to talk about Tuesday ever again. Bleh.
It's only 3:04 and i feel like it's much later.
Hm.
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[07 Jun 2008|04:29am] |
It's 4:09am and I've been working on my scrapbook for the past couple of hours.
I need to go to Hobby Lobby to buy some more god damned pages.
I need to print graduation/open house/evening of excellence pictures.
I need to make my tri-fold board things, and frame my pictures.
My open house.. grad party.. open RESTAURANT.. is on Sunday. And i have so much to do.
Please, please come so I feel like all this work was worthwhile.
It's Saturday now, but i'm going to refer to Friday as "today."
This morning I woke up fairly early, and I felt fine.
I didn't want to stay in bed, sulking. I got out of bed.. and I felt great. No burdensome, lonely, desolate feeling that I've been feeling the past week and a half whenever I'm alone.
I text him at 9:09 and said good morning.
He replied fairly promptly and told me he was at work for his mom.
After that, I know he had a doctor appointment to get a physical.
He called me after it and asked to go to lunch. Unfortunately, Jaime had just made me something to eat, so.. yeah.
We small talked. Well, he did really.. I was pretty quiet.
I asked: "Tyler, have you figured anything out?"
He said yes, and "I really miss you.. and I want to be with you."
I don't remember what I said, or if i said anything at all.
We got off the phone.
Just a few minutes later he says, "I do miss you :( "
We sporadically text until around 12:30.
I know he had to work.. probably around four-ish.
Last night he asked me if I wanted to do something after he got out of work.. but i wasn't counting on it.
Bum and I did a lot today, errands and open house stuff.
I felt so amazing this afternoon.. and I still feel really great right now, only tired.
We came back here around 5:30ish and sat around.. then he left.
Nick asked if I wanted to go to Krupa and Jen's open house, i said sure.
I went over there, we went over there, we went back to his house.
I have to say, as much as I love Tyler and still want to be with him oh-so-much.. Nick is great. He is fantastic. I love his family and they love me.
Tyler's dad hates me, and I hate him. I don't know about his mom. His grandma isn't very warm to me.
Nick's dad had a full fifteen or twenty minute conversation with me.. he played pinball in their basement with Nick and me. His mom talks to me kindly, and bought us Wendy's. His brother Matt talks to and jokes around with me. Their dogs don't terrify me.
So as I spent my day with Bum, and my evening with Nick... I didn't get one text from Tyler, nor a phone call since 12:30 this afternoon.. and oddly enough, i was pretty all right with it. I mean.. i would have rather have heard from him.. but I wasn't dying because he wasn't talking to me.
I left Nick's a little after 11 and Tyler called me while I was driving home..
After this morning, I don't really know what to think. I know he cares.. but does he REALLY want to be with me? Or is it because he's realized all these guys are talking to me now.. that he wants me back? I'd hate to say the latter, but... who knows? So, we aren't officially together and I have not seen him since Tuesday.
It's now Saturday. And I feel okay. I'm not devastated anymore. I can eat again. I had an amazing time with my bff this afternoon.
Tyler's taking the SAT this morning, so he was already in bed when he called. Our conversation sank back into our old pattern.. the pattern of when we were together. Ugh. Idk.
This blows.
I told him we really, really need to talk.. but I didn't want to do it then because he was going to bed.
It's 4:29.
I'm calling Bum at 7 and he's coming over so we can work on our open house crap more, and plan our day of open housing.
We're driving to WESTFIELD for Pearcy's.
I'm glad to be Xanga-ing again.
I feel relieved.
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[06 Jun 2008|02:19am] |
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I'm really tired, but don't want to go to bed.
Tonight, after work I went to Bum's to watch round one of the finals with him, Abdulis, and Mr. Lenard. It was fun.. except when i kept falling asleep near the end.
Work was pretty boring, pretty slow. I spent the whole time constantly checking my phone for no reason. I told Vierka the entire Tyler story, minus today.. she kept coming back to me between checking on her tables, etc. It was a little ridiculous.
I decided, i think, that I want to type up the entire thing so I can stop telling it.. and instead, save it to my phone and just hand it over whenever someone needs to know.
This morning Ashbear needed to go take a pee-pee test for her new job. Since some dumbfuck ran into us and she has no car, I took her. And on my way to get her around nine this morning, Tyler called.
Basically, it was small talk. Hey what's up, how are you, fine, good, what'd you do yesterday, etc.
He said he'd talk to me later.
After pee-testing, Ash and i met Fiddle at Splash Island. It was grand. Super hot, a little windy. Surprisingly, I got burned. I'm a little upset about it.. my chest and nose are pretty red, lol.
UNsurprisingly, all I basically did while lying there was think about Tyler. He called me this morning. And i know he still cares, i know he loves me still... as hard as he tries not to. At that moment, i wanted nothing more than to talk to him.. and so i texted him.
"I miss you so much ): "
He called. Again, small talk that lasted only a few minutes.
He asked what was on my mind.
And again, being the pussy that I am:
"I really, really miss you a lot"
What happened next?
"I really miss you too, Teresa."
My God, i could have died ):
I've been wanting to hear those words for a week now.. and I finally got them and DAMN, it felt good.
I started to cry a little and put my sunglasses on.
I don't remember how the rest of the conversation went, but it didn't last long.
He said he'd talk to me later.
I dropped Ashley off around 2:45 and was pretty hungry.. so i asked him if he was busy.
He said no. I asked if he wanted to go to lunch. He said he had to work, but asked if tomorrow would work.
I didn't answer.
About twenty minutes later, at 3:30, he tells me: "I have a sweet tooth teresa ):"
I'm not sure what this means, so i just said sorry and offered to make cookies with him.
No response.
At 2:37 he changed his Facebook status to say "Tyler Ott is thinking."
This was before i offered lunch, and he offered to reschedule.
I would do just about anything to know what he was thinking about, especially if it was about me. ):
Hours later, he's still saying nothing.. and i am practicing self control and not saying anything either, as hard as it is.
I get out of work at nine, head to Bum's. I'm sitting in his driveway, waiting for him, listening to Death Cab, feeling nostalgic and at 9:31 i receive:
"I hate that i miss you :( "
[sigh]
What do you say to that? Really? What?
I hate this. I hate it SO much. Hate isn't even strong enough to explain how i feel about this whole situation.. he continues to ask me if i want to hang out tomorrow [today].. when he gets out of work.
I say yes.
Bum finally gets home, Abdulis comes over, we're waiting for Nick; I get on Facebook.
Teresa is watching THE FINALS: GAME ONNNNE with Bumski, Abdulis and Nick. 9:58pmTyler slaps self in face.10:04pm
I say, watching the game of course. HE says, nice, are you wish ash? I say, no, i'm at bum's with him and abdulis waiting for nick and maybe donovan.. ashley's not a big nba fan. He says, haha! nice, don't drink too much. I say, i'm not drinking.
And then cue the normal, tyler-and-teresa-are-oh-so-in-love-baby-talk.
Wtf?
):
Why did he slap himself in the face?
What was he thinking about?
Why in the 21st century are we as humans so incapable of expressing to one another what we're feeling and thinking?
Why are our lives so fucking consumed and obsessed with Facebook?
God, let tomorrow..today.. go well.
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Marion County Tournament: Ben Davis 47, Decatur Central 44 Long shot gives Giants title Bentley hits from 50 feet as time expires to give Ben Davis a victory over Decatur Central
Alex Bentley released the ball more than 50 feet from the basket and then heard the greatest combination of sounds in basketball. Buzzer. Backboard. Net. Crowd. The Ben Davis High School junior guard banked in a shot from beyond halfcourt to give her team a 47-44 victory over Decatur Central and a record-tying seventh Marion County Tournament championship at North Central on Saturday night. No. 2 Ben Davis had to overcome an eight-point fourth quarter deficit in the semifinals, scoring 31 points in the final eight minutes to defeat Lawrence North 78-71 earlier in the day. "It looked like it was going in, so I was feeling kind of good," said Bentley, who had missed 11 of her first 14 shots. "But I just threw it up there and it went in." It was the slow-paced game that is traditional for a Marion County Tournament championship as both teams were playing for the fourth time in five days. Ben Davis (8-0) led 42-37 with less than three minutes remaining after a pair of free throws by Dee Dee Williams. But Decatur Central (7-2), believed to be making it first appearance in the event's championship after a 55-43 victory in the semifinals over Franklin Central, answered with a pair of free throws from Miranda McCarrell. Vivian Holcomb missed inside for the Giants, who got the rebound, and Bentley was fouled. She missed the front end of the 1-and-1. Decatur Central's Breanna Capps hit a layup off an interior pass from Diana Jovanovic to cut the deficit to 42-41 with 1:30 to play. Bria Goss missed two shots at the other end, then Anna Munn missed for Decatur Central, but Capps was fouled and hit 1-of-2 free throws to tie the score with 29 seconds left. Williams put Ben Davis back in the lead on a drive with 15.8 seconds left, but Munn scored out of a timeout to tie it with 8 seconds left. Ben Davis coach Stan Benge had told his team not to call a timeout if Decatur Central scored, so the ball was quickly inbounded to Bentley. She shot from the volleyball line, then launched herself into the embrace of teammates and fans. "I've never seen that to win a game . . . (a shot) of that length . . . ever," Benge said. "I was getting up because I thought it was overtime and I was getting ready to bring the (players) over (to the bench), then I saw it bank in. . . . I saw the shot, but I didn't think it had a chance of going in." Decatur Central coach David Cupp had a different view. "It was right in front of me and as soon as it left her hand, I said, 'No. She hit it,' " Cupp said. "But that's what big-time players do."
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I have Stats to study for, Econ to do, applications to finish/start..
But i wanted to get a few things off my chest:
I HATE unoriginal people. I've always been one to be rather touchy when people copy things that i do/say/etc. Whatever. Get off me!
I get aggravated when people try oh-so-hard to fucking fit in. I don't CARE if you have every single one of their CDs and you've listened to them for 39487 years but you forgot this ONNNNE song. I don't CARE. I don't think any different of you. You don't have to agree with everything I say to be my friend. You don't have to listen to every band I listen to. You don't have to know the words to every song I know the words to. You don't have to KNOW every song by the first opening chords. You don't need to fake interest in going to this show or that show just because I want to go, or you heard I was going, or you heard me talking about it.
I get annoyed when people talk about and bad mouth [one of] their best friends, yet to their face act like they're the best thing since flavored vodka. Don't complain to me how your friend is a big, bitchy, whiny, spoiled, crybaby brat if you are just going to take it and act like you love them ^345897897. (:
Lazy people annoy me.
I got a job at A&F for the discount. If you are working there and are striving for hours [for fucking 6.50 an hour], you need to get your life together. I go in, clock in, do what i'm supposed to do, make sure my room is perfect at nine when the mall closes.. so i can GO FUCKING HOME AT NINE, WHEN WE CLOSE. Yet.. I walk around that god damned store to find other people's rooms looking like SHIT, with clothes everywhere but where they're supposed to be.. and it is a quarter after nine.
Fuck that. If you do that shit just to get hours there, to get more money, to get SIX-FIFTY an hour.. get out of my face.
Next, what's up with Indiana and winter and no freaking shows? I'm dying for a show to go to. Haste the Day and Gwen Stacy in Bloomington... in FEBRUARY. Fuck. >:(
Cheerleading.
I really, really want to quit. But not for the reasons I want to quit? That makes sense to me and that's what matters, and well, to Ashley too i supposed, 'cause she feels the same. I hate the bickering. I hate the incessant negativity of some people. I hate that I feel like i do all these things that i shouldn't be doing because of my seniority. I hate that I feel like i'm one of the only people who takes initiative to do anything.
I hate that i've been doing basketball season for three years now, and i still make the god damned bust-out EVERY game. I hate that I care so much about cheerleading and the basketball team and being spirited and caring about this thing they're just going to run through in five seconds. I hate that while myself and a few others work on it before every game, there are people who fucking sit there and don't do anything. And they bitch and whine about how they "suck at painting" or "suck at outlining." It's a freaking PAPER that you are putting PAINT on... it's NOT that big of a deal if it doesn't look like a freaking Van Gogh! I hate that certain people are on varsity for the FIRST time this year, and think they have an imperative role. If this is your first year on varsity, firstly, shut the fuck up. If this is your first year AND you're a senior -- seriously. That's all I'm going to say is.. SERIOUSLY. You have no business but to BE lead. Go suck up to the coaches, I don't give a shit.. but do not actl ike you know what's going on when you are truly clueless.
I hate cunts.
Debbie Davidson ruins my day every morning.
I'm sure Eric, Fred, Dugan, and Adam [and i'm sure many more] can all say the same. I fucking hate her. And that's all I really want to say about her. UGH.
How is it that... last year, second semester.. i was a JUNIOR.. and missed first period AP Psych SEVENTEEN times, and never even got a call home. Not a detention. Not a referral. Passed with a B.
I have an A in web design, do my work, check everyone else's work.. and come in late to school.. and get a REFERRAL? Then a DENTENTION?
I truely abhor her. Sara told me she and Jeremy saw her crying after school one day. That makes my heart smile. I hope she knows we all despise her.
Also..
Two Mondays left.
Two Mondays left that count..
FOURTEEN days that really "matter."
Sophomore year, junior year... I claimed to have senioritis.
But never, ever have I truly grapsed its true definition until this past week.
This is it. The last stretch. In three weeks my GPA and class rank will be set in stone.
I've already been accepted to and been offered scholarships for more than five schools.
Friday I finished and submitted my application to my first-choice school.
I'm almost done. December 21 cannot [will not!] come soon enough.
Lastly,
I love Tyler Ott. He makes my soul, heart, spirit, mind, EVERYTHING smile. (:
Chyea.
-->> The [Find a new place to hang this noose] End.
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| El calor de mi cuerpo que se eleva casi sin control... |
[18 Sep 2007|11:12pm] |
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I don't care what AAAANYYYYYONE says: I fucking LOVE RBD. They are amazing and fantastic and wonderful and everything good to me. I get so happy when I listen to them. I really wish they would come here. Or Chicago. Ughhh.. They're so amazing. I think tomorrow morning I'm going to start the first season of Rebelde, lol.
Anyway, I've been working so much. I almost hate it. Well, there's only one person who I abhor. Detest. Loathe. UGH. I almost want to QUIT because of this douchebag. I gave up my entiiiire Sunday shift just because he is going to be there all day. That's bad. Seriously. What kind of manager.. never mind. I'm not going to say anything else on here because.. I'm sure at least one person from work will read this.
Oh well.. I haven't had a Sunday off in probably over a year, so that's great. And i can drive my mom to the story and stuff to do our grocery shopping, since she can't drive for two weeks.
Leeet's see..
HAHA, okay I'm super mad now. I got distracted and went to look at RBD's MySpace. And low and behold -- they're in Chicago on the TWENTY-EIGHTH OF THIS MONTH.
Ughhh I'm so depressed :'( !!! Oh well, it's on a Friday so I couldn't go anyway.. maaan. Fuuuck me ): I'm so mad!
I finished my Butler application today during my "Tatum's Student Helper" period.. I just need to get my satire from Dan so I can mail it to the school.
I was procrastinating starting my Chicago essay last night so I filled out: Evansville, Manchester, and DePauw. Hahaha.. I severely and highly doubt I'd go to any of those.. But I have no idea what to write about ): No idea. Someone should write me a kick-ass essay for UChicago. I guess I could be like Fiddle AND NOT GO TO COLLEGE :P I gave her applications to Butler, Princeton and Notre Dame. She doesn't want to apply to Princeton because you have to write an essay. Hahaha.. :-*
I work in the bar on Thursday, woo. I get to be with my bff James.
I had fun on Saturday with him. We really didn't do anything.. that I should discuss on here, but for my safety I spent the night [he's practically married, perverts, he slept on the couch]. His new apartment is so cuuute, I love it. :D It's on the canal aand it's wonderful. We watched A Clockwork Orange, so now I'm reading it. I tried to read it in like the eighth grade, but it was.. weird.
Alex is tight. Haha..
The game on Friday in Terre Haute was kind of lame. I was not in a very cheery mood. I hate hypocritical people -- especially people who are authorities -- uh, COACHES. I haaate that Carla is so condescending towards us and patronizes us constantly. She thinks we're all as dumb as she is, or something? Seriously. And then she gets all Nazi-like.. and bitches about people talking to much.. about playing around too much.. about not calling enough chants.. and she puts everyone in a bad mood. Then what does she do? She's distracting people, she's talking to people incessantly. Haha, Kim said "WHY ARE YOU GETTING MAD THAT SHE'S TRYING TO BE NICE?"
No. She's a hypocrite and bipolar and dumb and I can't take it any longer. I don't really want to even cheer anymore. I'm almost GLAD my shoulder is so messed up so I don't have to do much and I don't have to hear her mouth.
I never thought I would prefer Rachel over her, but I do.
Sara got an amazing tattoo. Seriously. Ask her about it. It's hardxcore.
I'm listening to the Juliana Theory. I'm such a nostalgic person. I hate it.
Lastly, I'm in love. Really. I want to marry this man. When I graduate, we WILL elope! Haha. What's up with me and old[er] men? They're hot! THAT'S what.
 --> The [Con solo verte] End.
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| I've changed my mind so much I can't even trust it.. |
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I'm in love.
Haha. So in love. Some of you know with you. :P
I dropped APWH for a study hall... and I had Z.. but I didn't want to be in there.. so i went to Dan's room... and it was silent and drove me crazy... so I asked Tatum if i could go in his room and he said yeeaaah so life is wonderful. I don't even half to listen to my phone because he listens to GOOD music! Wow.
I sent my application to Purdue already.
Mr. Henry made me apply to ISU and Franklin [no idea there that's even at].. I did both of those in one class period like the second week of school, to get out of APWH.
I'm finished with Notre Dame.. except for the essay, and Dan is writing my recommendation. U of I is done, I just need to get it to Mr. Henry.
Next is the first part of USC.. i just need to get my mom's credit card so i can do it online. The big priority is UChicago... because my essay needs to be amazingly kick-fucking-ass.
Come March and April..
I will know what I'm doing for the next four year of my life.
It's kind of scary. But i'm so ready. And excited.
Berkeley, USC, Chicago. Either of those.. and.. and I don't know what I'll do! :D
So my mom's surgery is on Monday.
I'm scared. She's terrified.
She can't work for about two months.
I've been working my ass off lately and it kind of sucks... Duhh i'm not blaming her, but i want to help her with anything I can.
Cheerleading is ehh.. I don't really want to do basketball.. which is sad because.. well, it's my favorite thing to cheer for. But some people just make it so UGHHH. I've begun to abhor it. Hopefully basketball will be better [if I get that far >:( ] since I'm pretty sure it's just Rachel doing it.. and not NAZI. And Assley "said" she's not doing basketball.. which would make it even more unbearable.. so hopefully she IS.
Game tomorrow: Terre Haute [North, I think]. Be there. Seriously. Drive to Terre Haute.
What else can I whine about, hm..
Men are stupid.
My new crush is pretty fantastic. I love that feeling of a new crush, that whole infatuated feeling.
Too bad there's no chance, haha.
--> The [My mind changed me so much I can't even trust myself] End.
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| I wouldn't change a thing now that you're here.. |
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I wouldn't change a thing now that you're here...
[ SEEEENIOR YEAR: WEEK ONE ]
So this last week has been... well, school.
The first day of school was okay. I found out quickly that I did NOT want to be in BC Calc, or Spanish V.
So the next day I got into it with Mr. Bridges.
I was seriously waiting outside his office for two hours, the second day of school. I had written out the changes I wanted to my schedule.. the perfect way it would work, which periods were offered which... Blatantly written and planned out on the schedule I already had.
When i finally GOT INTO his office.. and told him that I wanted to switch to AP Econ from regular, drop BC for Stats, and drop Spanish...
You know what he told me?
He told me "You're not going to get into college." This old man was completely serious too.
He told me I'm not going to get into college. Why you ask? Not because i dropped BC Calc, or had too few extra-curriculars.. as if i'm not a three-year, varsity cheerleader, a member of student council, president of Spanish NHS, a member of NHS, AND a senior mentor... Not beacuse my 4.352 GPA isn't high enough..
This man told me i wasn't going to get into college because I WANTED TO DROP FIFTH YEAR SPANISH.
Haaaahahah.. I was LIVID. I don't even remember everything I said to him.
Needless to say I got my schedule the exact way I wanted, the way i had ORIGINALLY told him the moment I sat down in that damned chair... after about 45 minutes.. AFTER sitting outside his office for two hours.
Schedule as follows for first semester:
Period 1: Web Design
Period 2: Web Design
Period 3: AP Microeconomics
Period 4/5: AP Stats
Period 6: Lunch
Period 7/8: AP World History
Period 9: AP Computer Science
Period 10: AP Language/Composition
Given the awful, random mixtures of people in my classes, I really like my schedule this semester. It's nice having only five AP classes instead of five AP, one honors like last semester.
Web design is fabulous now. I don't hate Mrs Davidson anymore. I sit next to Fred and we're pretty good friends again, and there's not even any of that weird "omg-i-still-have-feelings-for-you," bitter ex-boyfriend/girlfriend tension or anything. (: It's awesome being a second year [or in my case, a 1.5 year since i dropped it last year].. because I don't have to sit there, bored out of my mind listening to her drone on and on about.. whatever.
Like i said earlier.. about the mixture of people thing... my AP Econ class is awesome because our teacher is actually attractive! ..making it easier to pay attention. AND we haven't had ANY homework after a full week in school!
Stats is great because we come in, Mr. McKenna checks homework, teaches the lesson as quickly as he can.. while cracking a few older-man-funny jokes.. and then we have a bunch of time to start -and usually finish- our homework. Also, I have this class with Sara! And she sits right behind me, so that makes it 43597987x even better. :D
Lunch is lunch. I sit with Fiddle and this argumentative junior who i think she has a thing for, named Jordan. Just the three of us.. then two other boys none of us talk to. I like it. I'm so happy and thankful i swtiched my schedule around.. because I would have been depressed if I had no time with Laura.. because I know we would never talk otherwise. <3
World History is cool. Our class was pretty big.. and again, had people who were just not.. AP kids, I guess. Our class is pretty small now so I like it. I have it with Jake which again.. is cool because otherwise, we wouldn't have had any other time to talk. Ms. Leibric is really nice and sweet.. but I honestly think she is intimidated by us. I think this is the first AP class she's ever taught.. and it kind of shows. Oh well.. Our period does have a kind of intimidating roster :P I can tel this is going to be my hardest class... which is good.. because it's really not hard as long as I read.. which i'll have time to do because I don't have homework in any of my other classes!
Computer science blows. Mr. Davidson is a nice guy.. but I have no idea what he's talking about... EVER. Sean sits next to me, which is really awesome.. so I just talk to/pick on him the entire period and it passes time.. slowly. :P Fred said it was really easy for him last year, so hopefully it'll be another easy A class..
Eeeenglish.. I love Mr. O'Day. Easy A. Last period. That's all I really need. He's fantastic. I do wish I would have gotten Mr. Tatum.. but i can definitely live with O'Day. Sara's in this class with me toooo! I'm so happy. I have it with Kimmy also... which is great 'cause I dropped BC, which we thought would be the only class we'd have together. (:
So yeah, that's my senior schedule. Pretty easy. I'm happy. I'm ready to be done.. to graduate. I'm ready for next summer to just woooooork and hang out.
Cheerleading's been going well.
They're improving so much, every practice. Hakeeka got her double-down today on like, the first try. Kaylee's almost there too! Em will start working on it Wednesday hopefully. I love this squad. There's a couple of attitudes that could deal with toning down.. especially from the super-underclassmen who all of a sudden grew balls and decide to get angry about everything... for no reason? Idk.. angsty adolescence. Glad I'm eighteen. (:
I was scheduled to work ONE day this past week, and that was yesterday. I was a little upset.. but I figured they did it since it was my first week of school. I picked up a shift on Thursday, too.. and i worked in the bar! For the first time everrr! It was weird... especially being in there with Aaron. But whatever, haha. Anyway.
I have a busy schedule this week.
I had practice today.. and i need to get started on my APWH project when I'm finished with this blog.. and my English journals. :P
Tomorrow I have to work after school,
Wednesday I have practice again.
Thursday I have to work.
Friday we have a game at PENN! I'm excited. I didn't go sophomore year, but all the girls who cheered then who are on now.. haha, which would only be Loop, Kim and Alia.. said it was a lot of fun! We get to leave school eeeearly. :D
Saturday I have the morning off! But i have to work in the evening.
And Sunday I work alll day.
I'm not complaining. All of this busy-ness is just going to make the year go by quicker. :D
Mr. Henry, the college counselor, is 'making' me apply to three in-state schools, just for safety schools. I'm applying to Notre Dame, Butler, and Purdue.
My other schools I'm DEFINITELY applyting to are USC, Berkeley, and University of Chicago. I would liiiike to apply to NYU, Cornell, and Columbia too.. we'll see.
My SAT kind of sucks.. but my GPA is well.. you know.
Emily Lugo is doing an article on my iPhone and me for the Spotlight, :P
Ohhh quick rant:
[No offense Sara.. or Emily.. or other friends]
But WE HAVE THE WORST FUCKING JOURNALISM PROGRAM IN THE UNIVERSE.
I'm PISSED that I pay like seventy bucks for a fucking yearbook.. to flip through.. find an unflattering [but funny, so i don't mind] picture of myself.. with THEEEEEE most ignorant, dumb, stupid, fuckface sounding quote ever.
Caption reads:
During a pizza party for Key Club [OKAY, I'M NOT EVEN IN KEY CLUB], Maria Rosales [NO ONE CALLS ME THIS. AND DON'T GIVE ME THIS 'IT'S NOT PROPER JOURNALISM TO USE YOUR MIDDLE NAME' BULLSHIT, BECAUSE THEY DID SOPHOMORE YEAR WHEN I WAS ON THE YEARBOOK STAFF] wastes no time digging. "I absolutely love pizza parties. They're awesome because I love pizza," Rosales said. "Pizza parties have only been a small part of my year. My most memorable moment was when the girls basketball team was regional. We (cheerleaders) got to help cut the nets down too."
OH. MY. GOD.
When I read that, i felt the blood boil in my body. I sound like the most ignorant piece of shit in America.
And guess what? I NEVER SAID THOSE FOUL WORDS TO ANYONE ON THE YEARBOOK S TAFF! Why do those lazy-ass "journalists" do that shit? If you need to fill up a few words of text, sure.. add on to what someone ACTUALLY says. Don't make up SIX lines of freaking text that makes #23 in a class of 910 sound like a dumb bitch.
And on the cheer spread... oh my god, You can TELL almost everything was made up. Ashley has like ten lines of made-up shit that she "said".. which she clearly did not.
I'm real mad we pay almost a hundred bucks a year for this piece of made upGARBAGE. I think i'm going to write Mr. Hayes an e-mail.
I know it's hard to produce a yearbook.. I was on staff, so don't leave me any comments talking about "omg liiike how's he sposta know if ppl r making up quotes!!11one" because I KNOW. Stfu and I want my money back.
SHET.
So now that i'm all worked up again, I'm going to go watch Bill, start on my History, watch Raw.. then do my journals.
-->> The [Your love is a verb] End.
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| Family Values Tour: 2007. |
[11 Aug 2007|12:31pm] |
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Family Values Tour: 2007.
Wow.
That's all I can really say.
For only really going for two bands, it was fucking amazing.
I went to pick up Ashley and Sean around like, one. We actually went in the gates around the time Neurosonic were playing.
I went to the pit during Trivium. I was definitely looking foward to seeing them. They were really great.
Then Hellyeah came out, they were fabulous. It was amazing getting to see all those guys in person. Amazing. I didn't stay for their whole set because the girl [Kelly] from the Evanescence board who was buying my extra pit ticket got there, so I had to go meet her at the gates.
When I met her, we went back to the pit together, where one of her friends was one person away from the rail. Thankfully, nice people let us through so we could get up there. They were setting up for Flyleaf.
I don't like Flyleaf.. so I can't really comment on their set because it'll be biased, duh. I DID see them last year... well not really, drink break. Anyway, I remember the singer chick looked mad skinny. She looked a little bigger yesterday, and cut off all her hair.
This guy and his friend became my best friends for the next couple of hours.
I rocked the fuck out during Atreyu. They were INCREDIBLE!
I got a drum stick from Brandon, picks from Dan and Marc.. aaand... THEIR SET FUCKING LIST! Oh my goodness, they were amazing.
For "Lip Gloss and Black," Alex was standing in front of me singing to me as i SCREAMED the words back to him, haha. It was amazing. Another one of the Evanescence board girls took a picture from behind me at this moment, so hopefully I'll have it soon. (:
Yesterday soooo made up for when I met them last year, and they weren't too friendly. I'm going to excuse them for that and say it was because I was at the end of the line [because I was], and they were probably tired of signing shit.
Nevertheless -- they were amazing and fabulous and everything else. No "Ain't Love Grand?" but then again, when do they ever play that? They ended with 'Lip Gloss and Black,' which is my favoritest so it's all good.
He looked at me a lot. (: He was probably thinking "What's this little girl on?"
'And deeestroy the prettiest starry night.."
Evanescence were next.
Okay.. I definitely DO NOT like this band... at all. Sorry, I don't.
BUT i have to give Amy fucking Lee her props 'cause MAAAAAAAN can she fucking sing. She has the most amazing voice ever ['cept for Jon's duh (: ] and she can still rock out and sound as gorgeous as she looks.
It seemed like an eternity before they set up for Korn.. but eventually, around 9:30.. one by one, my men entered the stage. <3
There's not even much I can say. I took like one picture of Jon because I just wanted to go crazy the entire time... which I DID, and did WELL. I have never, ever, ever, ever: yelled, punched, kicked, jumped, screamed, sang, freaked out as much as I did last night from 9:30-11. Holy. Fucking. SHIT.
I KNOOOOW I bitch about Korn all the time and how they suck and this and that and they're new shit's new good... well, I'm just an arrogant hating fuck who's stuck in the past.
No matter HOW much their music changes, no matter HOW many members bail on them [FUCK DAVID! Joey Jordison is amazing].. they will always be Korn, Korn who i have WORSHIPPED since I was what? EIGHT years old.
Their set was pretty damned good. Of course, they didn't have time to play ALL the 'classics.' I think this was the first time I've ever seen them and they didn't play "Somebody Someone." They DID play "Trash" through, which is one of my favorites from Issues.. they also did "Bottled Up Inside."
From self-titled '94, they played Faget and Blind of course [which they ended with]. I almost puked during Faget, haha.. i was yelling SSSOOO hard.. and during the "Suck my... and fucking like it" part I gagged a little, ahahah it was so funny.
They played Ass Itch, which was cool too.. i think they played that last year or the year before. They did Another Brick.. Freak on a Leash, Twisted Transistor...from the new album they did Starting Over, Evolution, Hold On.. and I think one other.. but I can't remember, i'm not super familiar with the new album yet.
OHHh yeah, they did Dead Bodies Everywhere! Oh my God, it was AMAZING.
It was kind of annoying though.. there were a lot of people on the rail and in the pit who weren't all crazy screaming and shit like me and my new buddies were.. kind of upsetting, but whatever. (:
Here I am now, ten years later.
Still as amazed as the first time I layed eyes on these beautiful men.
YEAH I SAID IT! Beautiful.
The first time I saw them, in 2000, I was watery-eyed by the end.. last night, I was too. I didn't want it to end.
Last night, I think, was my most favorite Korn show ever.
I made Fieldy smile a lot. (:
I bought a shirt on my way out to my car.
This interview made me tear up. ):
--> The [I will post a link with more pictures later, if you care] End.
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| BUY IT PLEEEEEASE! |
[08 Aug 2007|03:15pm] |
I don't think anyone reads this anymore.. but..
I have an extra PIT TICKET for the Family Values Tour on Friday, August 10th in "Indianapolis" [Noblesville], Indiana at the Verizon Wireless Music Center.
I will take $72 for it, and probably less if no one is willing to pay that amount [which is actually less than what I payed for it].
Please, if you or anyone you know is interested, let me know (:
Leave a comment or IM me at oo like morphine Thaaanks!
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| We'll float around and hang out on clouds... |
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oo like morphine (11:22:10 PM): He changed his status to ".. is happier than he's been in a while"
XO LiL LAURA O8 (11:22:24 PM): hahaha.
XO LiL LAURA O8 (11:22:27 PM): wow!
HAHA.
I finally did it.. like everyone has been telling me and telling me to do.. and he doesn't even care. Apparently I was going to get dumped at the end of the week [not sure exactly why the end of the week?] anyway. What a blow to my ego.. haha (;
I feel better though.. I don't feel guilty about not spending every waking minute with him anymore, or about NOT being super clingy, or about hanging out with Schuyler or any of my other [guy] friends.. or even girl friends.
It kind of sucks though because half my summer... yeah. Shut up, Ashley.. don't even say anything :P
So yeah, today my mom told me I was getting fat and yesterday a girl at work told me I need to do sit-ups. Haha.
My iPhoneEnGoXLIrJqY is amazing. I am obsessed with it. It was being a little laggy today.. but that's okay. It's aaaamaaaazing.
The girls' first competition is on Friday! Madison County Fair or something.
During my break on Friday, Schuyler and I layed out and went to Marsh to buy our Incubus tickets! I'm so fucking stoked.. I cannot wait! I can't believe this is my first show of the summer. ): It's so sad.
I've been working a lot more since Mayra's not there anymore. ): I miss her terribly. ..3 ..but she's doing well and is happy (:
I'm supposed to go back to the orthapedic tomorrow for my shoulder.. but my mom just told me TODAY.. and I have to work all day tomorrow. Yeah. What the hall?
While Ashley and I were laying out at her grandma's the other day, I was reading WWE Raw.. and there's a section called like "Sexy Fan of the Month," or something. You have to be 18+, duh. And like you just send in a picture.. then a ten question quiz or something.. then you get to do like an awesome photo shoot and be in the magazine! I really want to do it.. but iii don't know, I hear I'm kinda fat these days.
Lastly, I'm like in love with Taco Bell crunchwraps. Ashley and I go eat after practice like every-fucking-day.
The other day we had TB at like three in the morning, then again around two.. then Starbucks and Hooters later that evening. Ridiculous.
I discovered Taco Bell during AP weekw ith Chris Driver. I had these nasty soft tacos. Then Michael recommended the crunchwrap.. and i've been in love ever since. He gave me an empanada today, and that too was amazing. I love my Mr. Woods. bestfuckingfriends<333
I miss my KT. I miss my Fiddle too.. I haven't seen her in like a week.
It's so amazing and I am so lucky to have FOUR awesome, female friends that are not relatives [even though I am grateful for Mayra too] KT, Looper, Fiddle, and Kimmy are my loooves. <3
So apparently I have freaking Mr. O'Day for English.. i'm pretty upset. I really, really wanted Mr Tatum ):
Also, Mrs Theobold is teaching Espanol V.. i'm scared. This sucks. I'm actually going to have to do shit now :'( I want Mrs Laaaahr.. I want to do nothing.. I want my easy AP, grade-weighted A!
That's about all the I can think of...
-->> The [Then we'll come down and have a hangover] End.
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I am EIGHTEEN.
[and one day. Officially, over eighteen. Shittt.]
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So I haven't updated in a long time, and I don't really care..
But i'm tired of Michelle filling in for Bill, and I don't want to do my on-line government or PE.
Today Laura, Jaime, and I went to the Plainfield pool. We were definitely there for like six hours. My mom brought us McDonald's when she got out of work and that was amazing. Laura got pretty burned/burnt.
[Can someone please explain the difference between burned and burnt? And which is correct? It's killing Laura and me.]
I have sunglass tans. My brother used tanning oil. Laura finished the Color of Water, and i tried to catch up on Bill's "Who's Looking Out For You?"
Let's see...
I'll be eighteen on Saturday and i'm really stoked.
When we were at the pool, i was just joking around and i was like "Mom, can I get a tattoo?" She said it's either that or my iPhone. So.. no way.
And then i asked if i could get my tongue pierced.. and she said i could get whatever I want pierced.. which i mean, technically i could anyway, but i don't want her to be mad or sad at me. (:
Basically, I'm not really doing anything for my birthday.. but i'm excited to be legal [WATCH OUT!] and get my iPhone. :D I don't know if i'm doing anything with anyone.. because i've had people want to hang out, take me out, and stuff.. but this whole boyfriend thing.. yeah. /: .. [Not to be a betch..]
Also, I am going to commit suicide soon because of this pain in my shoulder. I hate it. It's all that consumes me and it BLOWS. I'm into like my fourth week of physical therapy and yeah.. it still kills. Every. Day. I can't think about anything else because EVERYTHING i do makes it hurt so bad..
And today Eric [my therapist] told me that it's probably going to be at LEAST another three months before it's even remotely back to normal and strong. I started crying my face off. It sucks. I HATE it. This is my senior year. I can't even attempt to tumble. I can't stunt. It hurts to cheer and dance and jump. It's EXCRUCIATING to run.
I haven't been to cross-country in like two weeks because of cheer camp and because I want to let my shoulder just be.. So i'm sure the team probably thnks i've just dissappeared because I don't give a shit and it's so not like that. ): And I haven't called Coach Petersen because.. I don't know why.
I feel like i'm already getting out of shape. So today i planned on going to the canal for a fourty minute run.. uhm, yeah right.. after twenty minutes i really could not stand the pain of my shoulder any longer. I HATE IT. It's so frustrating ):
I go to every cheer practice and stretch with them.. and then just sit there, and yell the words when they go through their routine. And i just feel like some of them are thinking "Why is she here? Why is she on the squad? She can't do anything." ..and I won't even be able to THINK about stunting or tumbling for another few months... and it's my SENIOR year.. and I'm pretty positive i want to cheer for football and ughh..
At least camp was fun. I really feel like this is the best squad I've been on. Camp was the most fun it has EVEREVEREVEREVER been!
We won the LEADERSHIP award. All the other squads [UNANIMOUSLY] voted us the squad who camp would not have been the same without!
We also won the Traditions award, which he always win - even last year when our squad was bleh - because we have awesome chants and stuff, duh. :P
We won the banana on the second day! Castle on the first, Danville on the third.. and Castle took it home the fourth day.. which we know we got jipped out of. BD totally deserved it. Varsity got fourth on the extreme routine, and third on the chyea!
The suites at USI were amazing, and the food so much better than IU. I hope Carla continues to take the squad to USI because... USI >>>> IU, hands down. I'm so sad that i had to spend three years of cheer camp at the shithole that is IU. So because we were in suites and had two showers in each.. the seniorrrs didn't get to take showers first. :P But we did get first in the food lines, haha. Being a senior at camp and so far this year has been surreal. It's so cool though (: It feels awesome and I'm already ready for March and April to decide where I'm going with the next four years of my life!
Summer's pretty much half over. I can't believe it.
In a month I'll be doing Senior Mentor training, and then starting school a week later. I need to decide where and when I'm getting my senior pictures done! I really like Savannah's [REALLY liked!] so I think i'm going to ask her for information..
I got my Harvard viewbook thing and application in the mail today, haha. I'm going to go through with it and apply, for Mr. Wells' sake. :P
Lastly, I need someone to buy my other PIT Family Values ticket (:
I think Fred is buying my other Projekt Revolution ticket and going with me, but i'm not sure.. we haven't talked about it since the day the tickets went on sale.
And apparently Ozzfest sold out in seventy-two hours. That's some shit. Now i have to buy one SOMEWHERE, because I am NOT missing Static-fucking-X.
Raw's about to come on.
How about that Chris Benoit stuff, huh? Crazy. ):
--> The [I'll make you face this now] End.
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So basically, since we are out of school -- it IS summer. And i'm very happy about that.
I checked PEP this morning and basically i'm probably not even going to be in top thirty anymore.. and i'm basically dropping out of school.
AP Psych: B
Anatomy H: B+
AP Calc: B-
AP US H: A-
AP Espanol IV: A
AP Lit/Comp [NOT FREAKING BRIT LIT, IDIOTS]: A
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Community college, here i come.
Anyway, i'm so glad it's summer. This was by far my hardest school year ever.
I was reading through bulletins and bitches were already complaining about being bored.
Shut UP. People need to be GREATFUL for two months of no AP classes and tests and research/satire papers and "homework."
Speaking of those papers, I got a 94% on mine and it was probably my most favorite paper i've ever written. (:
I only had two finals to take so the past couple of weeks haven't been SO treacherous... but AP testing week... ew.
I took five tests. The APUSH and Psych one i really didn't care about.. so i really didn't do any of the essays for either.
I'm pretty sure i got at least 3's on Calc and Lit.
But the Spanish one.. i was expecting a five on.. but see, this thing was six hours due to technical difficulties... so we didn't even FINISH.. so they scheduled to finish it this past Wednesday, during finals [idiots]. Sooo I go down there seventh mod, and they STILL weren't ready?! So i just left. I guess i'll just take it next year with the Spanish Literature test. :'(
But AP week was nice because i got real lunch everyday... and i tried Taco Bell for the first time. And it sucked.
Wayne lost my list of concerts so i had to make him another one last night at work.. Last year it seemed a lot easier to get people to take me to shows for my birthday. :..
So hopefully Wayne can get me tickets for all these shows through his beer reps.. or i'm not really going to any ):
My list had
- The Fray [ I don't like them, but i just want to go.. to go ]
- Bob Dylan
- Queens of the Stone Age
- Incubus
- 311
- Warped Tour
- Dave Matthews [both days]
And of course i'm going to Ozzfest [STATIC X.. YAYYYYYY] and Projekt Revolution for sure. (:
..but yeah, i don't know about those other boys! Hopefully the nice beer reps will come through.
Also, I turn 18 in just a little over a month.
Buut for now, i think i'm in dire need of a nap. I went for a long run this morning.. and i ran pretty hard. And i feel better about myself, haha. But now i'm exhausted.
And i have to work at 5:30.
And i need to clean the house.
Ew, and my car. ):
Yep.
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[05 Apr 2007|01:52pm] |
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   Wowww spring break has been WONDERFUL! [And that's not sarcasm.]
On Friday,
I called myself out early to avoid APUSH and English tests... and because half of my classes were half-empty ANYWAY. So I went to Yats for lunch, went to visit Mayra at work. We took a walk down Mass Ave and went into a few shops. Mass Ave is my favorite street in America.
After I got home, I decided to go to Blockbuster. I rented The Black Dahlia and Marie Antoinette - both good. I actually didn't watch them until Saturday because I got called off work that night.
Sunday
I worked all day and was supposed to go to Hooter's afterwards with Hardy to watch WrestleMania23. As I suspected, he ended up bailing out on me - without telling me. He called like an hour or two into the show, but I didn't care. I like being by myself so I went anyway. When I got there, these two guys asked me to join them.. and their ten-thousand pitchers of beer... so I did. Haha. They were about to leave when Schuyler said he could come down to catch the rest... so they left and he came.
Schuyler and I made a bet on the HBK vs Cena match. It was heart-wrenching.. the whole place was going crazy with "CENA SUCKS!" and other chants.
I ended up losing two bucks to Schuyler. I was pissed.
Monday
.. morning I went for a much-needed run at the canal, for a good hour or so. On my way home Schuyler text me and asked if I wanted to go to lunch. I came home, showered, and took Jaime to my tia's.. then went to get Schuyler.
It was fun. It kind of sucks hearing about his recent girl-troubles though.. being that I was once his girlfriend.. and I don't think most girls like hearing about OTHER girls from someone they were pretty much in love with.. for whatever reason. Anyway, we went to Yats [of course], and it was awesome. Then we went to Starbucks and Luna, where I bought the latest Norma Jean CD that I had already burned... which reminds me, I need to pick up the Haste the Day CD I ordered from Borders. Then we went to the canal. Then we went to Ritters and shared a banana split.
Then I came home.. and Chris and Richard called me.. and we went to see TMNT, which was AWESOME! Then we sneaked into 300, but my mom kept calling so I left.
Tuesday
My mom and I got up early to take my car to get its oil changed, and to take her truck to get its tires rotated. Then she had to go to the gyne, haha. Then we went to get our taxes done.. I get three-hundred something back.. not even enough to cover my prom dress, but ANYWAY. After getting our taxes done, we went up to Keystone to look for a dress.. and found nothing. I saw Sam :D at A&F, where i bought the most awesomest, white shorts ever. So we found no prom dress -- but we did go to the Cheesecake Factory where i had amazing cream of mushroom soup and some pasta stuff [ONLY three more days of animal-less eating!]. But the most amazing part was the WHITE CHOCOLATE CARAMEL LATTE CHEESECAKE. Ughhhh... it was orgasmic.
So then i came home and sat around.. and got the most random call from Garrison.. which to be honest, kind of frightened me. So i called back and he invited me over to Chris Linn's [more frightening randomness] to play... Sorry? Or something. But I couldn't because..
Wednesday
My mom and I got up semi-early to go to CHICAGO!
And i must say -- I absolutely LOOOOOOOOOOOOVED The University of Chicago. The campus, the students, the feeling, the awesome pizza place a few blocks from the admissions office. I loved it! I've read a lot about how people just "felt like they belonged" whenever they stepped on to that campus. I'm not sure if this was that campus for me - but i loved it. Our tour guide was awesome, and the admissions counselor that did the info session afterwards was great. (: I really, really enjoyed our visit.. and am definitely excited to apply.
After we were done at U Chicago, we went to Peaches Boutique, which i had found on-line. And let me tell you - if ANY of you need a dress still, this is the store. I tried on at least twenty dresses.. and ended up going with the one I had tried on FIRST, ahaha. It cost too much but I didn't want to be stressing about this anymore. So. We bought the extravegant dress. And made our way home.
Today [Thursday]
I want nothing more than to just sit around without my mom bitching at me once, do APUSH, and maybe go take my dress to get hemmed.
As of now, I'm pretty excited for prom. I have a date - a date who i am HAPPY asked me because he's funny and nice and i'm pretty positive we're going to have a lot of fun. I have a dress that i LOVE. It's not red.. but.. it's gorgeous. And I am on a diet.
And i should have went running already but it's freezing balls outside so.. no.
I am also supposed to go pick up my [and Andrew's] Norma Jean tickets in Broadripple... but.. I don't think I am going to. ):
I can't always have everything I want so I tihnk I should just deal with it.. instaed of driving all the way to work to get my tips and check, finding someone to cover my shift tomorrow night, going to get my check cashed, then driving even farther out to get our tickets.
I clearly did not have enough money to even pay for HALF of my dress, yesterday.. so I need to just suck it up and miss one amazing concert.. and work instead. ): I'm pretty bummed about it... and I still need to tell Schuyler and Andrew I'm not going.
So.. for now I shall leave you with a picture of my dress, which the picture does no justice:
The store's website is peachesboutique.com. I have a bunch of $10 coupon things... so if you need one [which i doubt any of you girls do because i bet you are a lot more responsible than me] just let me know! (:
--> The [Girl's got a face like murder] End.
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Some things that I hate are:
Bitchy friends, bitchy good friends, friends who are bitchy to you it seems like ALL the time except when you're missing for a day or two, friends who are bitchy to you when all you are is nice to them; pretencious people, but mostly people who are pretencious and have no reason to be, scrawny little boys who think they're hot shit who are really -- nothing, scrawny little showchoir boys who think they can treat anyone however they want and be mean to my good friends because they're... them; November Rain; AP Psych, my AP Psych class; procrastination; working six days a week, lazy servers, servers who can't do their own miniscule tasks that will take them no more than two minutes, people who don't do SHIT and work maybe once a week and get to leave early when i have worked everyday of the week and have closed almost every night, when my net check is $423 and i get $282; pre-choir-audition-jitters; school; the fact that Raw comes on at nine; my stolen phone; waiting for my phone, not having a prom dress; not having A PROM DATE AND THE FACT THAT I HAVE ACCEPTED THAT NO ONE [that i would like to go with] IS GOING TO ASK ME; high school; rap music and people who blare their radios; my Spanish class and how everyone [not EVERYone] is ridiculously loud and RUDE; when there are two shows on the same night [Chimaira -- Anberlin]; missing someone who is far away and who you know doesn't miss you as much as you miss them; not having my damn phone; hunger; thinking about college and what I'm going to do with the rest of my life; my hips and how they won't get better; guys who are intimidated by girls with brains and who aren't like everyone else; when you know a guy will never try to pursue anything with you [even though you know you could be great] because your ex is their friend; your friends who think it is just fine to excessively hang out and spend tons of time and talk to your ex-boyfriend who did you so wrong; people who are so devistatingly different around different people -- who rarely acknowledge you in this class or that class with these people[s], but when you're in THIS class, they're your BFF; people who live on and thrive off of MySpace and comments and picture comments; Taking Back Sunday's "Louder Now;" new coaches who don't do anything; people who want to be coaches but act intimidated by their team; quitters; liars; people who think they're hot shit because they're "smart;" people who you barely speak to or don't even know who add you to [anything]; how someone can win Homecoming AND Prom all three and two years, respectively, of their HS career; John Cena; ICP; cellulite; how typing this is actualy making me feel better; how some of the ugliest, yucky girls can have the cutest, coolest boyfriends; scratched CDs; my grandma's poor health; wrecking two cars; homework
Speaking of that, I should get to it.
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Eat the weak.
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So I have to be at work at five.. and am taking a little break from my Calculus.. To inform everyone that on my way home, on the Airport Expressway... I got a fucking ticket. A ticket. The officer didn't even give my Mexican self the time of day to say anything, probably assuming that I didn't even speak English.**
I was going 66 in a 45. On the Airport Expressway. Who DOESN'T go at least sixty on that damn road, it IS pretty much a highway. What gets me even more is the fact that there were tons of cars around me going just as fast. AND... AND there was a car riding my ass.. but of course, that doesn't matter. Because the stupid, dirty, little Mexican was speeding.
I was contemplating a] suicide b] not telling my mom and dealing with it on my own and c] just fucking tell her.
I decided, after a few minutes of sitting in the Stout Field parking lot, that I would come home and tell my mom.
So, I did. I walked in the door and she said What's wrong? I stuck out my hand, clutching the ticket and starting to whimper [haha].
She shook her head and said Oh great... you got a ticket.
Yeah... ::Sob::
On Airport Expressway?
Mmhmmm ::Sob::
BLAH BLAH BLAH... INSURANCE... BOTH ACCIDENTS.. GOING TOO FAST..
I told her about the other cars, blah blah etc.. and she asked me if I told him that and I said no -- 'cause I didn't! I didn't want to argue... and like I said, he didn't' give me the time of fucking day.
And I know she felt for me a little 'cause she's received MORE THAN ONE ticket on that freaking road. But then the fact that the insurance is going to be higher... and that it'll look like the accidents WERE my fault, hit her.
And now my eyes are swollen and I have a headache from crying. I haven't cried in a long while.
Speaking of, Sara made me feel really great like, yesterday.
We were talking about.. him..
And I was like..
You know, I don't really hate him. I don't even really dislike him... I think I'm just so bitter 'cause I miss him.
And she said I'm glad you admit that
And it made me feel a lot better.
And I love Sara. (:
Ten minutes to get ready for work.
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I'm very dissapointed.
Desperate Housewives was a re-run. ): Boo.
So today we put up our Christmas tree! It was very exciting. I was mad at my mom for buying a cheater tree... you know, one with the lights on it already. But whatever. We put it up.. and it seemed to me just as much work, if not more, than the damn tree WITHOUT the lights!
Nonetheless.. my tree decorating skills are nothing short of amazing.. my Bree skills! I took a quiz to see which DH i am, haha, and I'm Lynette.
We finished the house decorating around five-ish and went grocery shopping -- and mi dieta comienza manana!
After a ton of begging, my mom bought me a box of Slim Fast bars. So i'm doing that Monday-Thursday. Then, Friday and Saturday i'm going to do this "48 hour miracle diet" with some juice stuff my mom bought and didn't use. It says "Lose up to 10 lbs!" Haha, yeah right.
But i figure by doing this.. and cheering.. I should see SOME difference! I'm pretty excited.
Yesterday, i sat around and watched the UCLA/NC girls game..and Elf! And Sara came over and we talked like we usually do. (: I love her.
I got in a shower and rushed [of course] to get ready for work.
I went to work to find my poor, miserably cousin, lol. A couple of hours later.. i was in that poor, miserable situation. Haha. We were bleeding to death -- TOGETHER! Haha.
She left me. So I started reading Macbeth and doing the study guide... aaaand i'd like to say i'm very thankful for Spark Notes' side-by-sides!
I didn't go out after work 'cause I was feeling pretty yucky.
I had quite the wonderful conversation with a pretty cute certain someone though, haha. Oh, Romeo! He's such a whimp. ;P
Friday I'm pretty sure school sucked.
I went to KT's afterward.. we got ready then went back to school around 5.45 for the first boys' game!
They played Pike... and got pwned. hxc style. It sucked. Oh well. There were a lot people there and that was nice... it's a lot better than cheering to twenty parents. (:
Also, i got the best hug EVER from that cute huey.. so i was pretty giddy. :P
Thursday I don't really remember. Oh yeah! I think this is the day that I bomed my Calculus test that everyone else seemed to have no problem with!
After school, KT and I went to go cash my check. Then we went to Barnes and Nobles so i could buy Macbeth [yeeahhh, side by side!]. We went back to school at five so we could go to LN for the girls' game.
Uhm -- BEST. GAME. EVAR! They were losing by like... ten or more at half time.. then the second half.. they came back! I was so proud of them. They came back AND won! We have a really good girls team and I hope everyone starts to show them more support... more than they show for our boys who get blown out their first game. (:
Wednesday I'm sure school sucked again! I had a student council meeting ater school. Then I went home. Then i went to work!
I got my check and sawww --- THAT I GOT A RAAAISE! YAYYY!!! I was so happy. I went in to the potty and called my mom, lol. I'm so lucky.
So many of my friends have shitter [sorry] jobs and get paid half of what i make.. I'm so lucky that I have a FUN and rewarding job.. and that i work with [mostly] wonderful people! (:
Anything before Wednesday, I don't really remember or care about anymore. :D
Oh yeah, so when i went to Ozzfest this summer, Atreyu were there, right?
I remember when they used to come here all the time with CKY! But anyway, I don't know if they're mainstream at all anymore.. buuut when i went to Ozzfest, I definitely had to pay like twenty bucks [for one of their CDs] to meet them. I listened to this CD [A Death-Grip On Yesterday] for the first time yesterday, and didn't pay TOO much attention to it... but wasn't very impressed with what i heard. I thought it was okay... but there was like.. a SOFT, mellow, slow song... haha, and i thought that was really weird.
I don't know. Suicide Notes and Butterfly Kisses is one of my favorite CDs of all time... and then i was a little dissapointed with The Curse, but not too much. And then i listened to this. Haha, it made baby Jesus cry.
And one time when I mentioned meeting Atreyu [in a blog] and said something about them not being very nice and considerate to their fans who paid too much money for a CD that most of them had, just to meet them... these kids called me a bitch, haha.
I need to go to a show.
That Deadsy/Deftones tour needs to come through here SOON!
My uterus hurts.
And I hate when you get that new, little crush on someone and you just -- UGH! I've learned to not get my hopes anymore. But it's hard. ):
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Please keep in mind that this on-line blog/journal/diary is that of Teresa Rosales. Thus, there will be postings etc. about how and what she is feeling, and it just might go in to severe detail. If you feel that you will be offended by that [WHICH YOU WILL BE] , click the little "x" on your browser. kthxbye. :D
I just got home from my fiiiirst game of the season! It was really... I don't know. It had its ups and downs. God knows i hate doing freaking shoulder sits, haha. Poor Alex who has to walk with my fatass on her shoulders.
But it was nice to do the bust-out and run the flags again... except I always used to do the "B" last year. ):
My throat really hurts.. I haven't cheered in so long, my voice isn't used to it.
I stopped and bought myself some Red Bull on my way home.. so you know what that means!
Today was a pretty good day.
I was debating all day whether or not to read my story.. Freaking eeeeveryone wanted me to read it. Haha, they were all excited. Thanks for you support, my lovely friends. <3
It felt so nice to write... It really, really helped me get over things.. I guess that's why teachers always tell us to write what we know. (: Like Mrs. Squire said... it was very.. Cathartic!
Nonetheless, i definitely almost started crying while I was reading it, lol. I suck at life. I was hoping no one would notice but Fiddle, Sara and Amy did. ): Oh well, like i said before class was over... as soon as i get home, i'm sure when i check my 'Space he will have a] deleted from his list and b] posted wahwahwah bulletins about how much of a bitch I am.
Anyway, only like five people in the entire class knew what it was about.
My story was not biased whatsoever. It stated fact. I don't give a shit if you're planning to break up. If the other person has no idea about it, then you're still fucking together. Dont' make up some bullshit so YOU feel better about yourself.
Yesterday in Zoology, people were talking about Angie, haha. Yeah, i joined in.. just to make myself feel better. So what? Kill me. I'm human. But yeah, like i said. My story was very cathartic, and i'm done with that whole situation and ready to move on (: Because there are deeeffinitely many people who have been talking to me since Saturday...
Yesterday...
I actually came home after school.. i forgot what i did.. oh yeah, haha.. anyway.. i slept and worked on my story...
Monday...
I didn't go to school. My eyes were waaay to swollen and puffy and red and i looked hideous... to go to school. Sssooo, i called myself out... pretended i was going to school and went to Schuyler's around nine. (: I... ugh. I don't know about that kid... I heart him so. We're just amazing together. (: No one can surpass our feelings when we're with each other <3 I don't care WHAT fake, wanna-be skanks he hangs out with.
I left there around 2ish, so i could go to practice. (:
Sunday...
I got home around three-thirty. I had went to a wedding reception with Mayra and Carlos... we left there around two, they took me to my car 'cause i was parked at the Raffleskaffle! Then i went to Schuyler's and hung out with him for about an hour and a half.
Later Sunday night is when Fred and I officially broke up. I don't care what he says. This is when I HAD to call HIM, to confirm whatever there was to be confirmed. So, we were done. Yeah, i was pretty devestated. Please don't give me the "He's not that cute" "He stinks!" "He's an idiot" crap... i've heard enough already and I don't care. I really, actually did like and care about him.
A couple of hours later, a friend of Angie's informed me that Fred and she actually had exchanged a kiss Friday night/earlyearly Saturday morning. Fucked up? Yoooou bet!
And that's where all this "Drama" came from. But like i said, it still hurts... but after writing my story, i'm pretty much ready to move on... as there have been a vast amount of the oppposite sex showing their pursuit for my attention in the past coupel of days.
But for now.. i'm starting to feel the... yeah. So.. i don't nkow how much longer i can type this well (:
So, i shall leave you with my Canterbury Tale.. enjoy! --
Lying is the Most Fun a Boy Can Have Without Taking Off His Clothes
Told by the Wife of Bath
Prologue
"Do you ever have anything worth while to say," asked the Host
Offended, the Wife of Bath replied, "Why, of course! My tales are ones that teach the most
Of love, of faithfulness, of how a man should treat his woman
This tale is of less-than-a-man, who for some reason couldn't.."
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There once was a young maiden, pretty and bright
Her life was good, everything all right
She loved her friends, music, parties, and of course, boys
For some reason, always those who treated girls like toys
The maiden was very trustful, almost gullible; especially to those who were open
She was forever left with her heart broken
Growing weary, the maiden was reluctant to find love again
Until one day along came an ideal young man
They started to see more of each other
Introduced to father, brother, sister, and mother
Their future seemed promising, happy, and true
Problems began to spring up, out of the blue
Some girls were not too found of our maiden, for whatever petty reasons
They seemed to change along with the seasons
Of these girls, one was close to the young man
To anyone else, it'd be quite obvious for him not to give a damn
"Bros before hoes," she stressed again and again
Not having any sympathy for the innocent, hated maiden
In no time at all, "I can't do this anymore," the maiden was told
Being generous as she was, no grudges were there to hold
Months went by with an occasional greeting, a nod or a smile
We'll come to learn, that this was not worthwhile
On a random day, the young man began to pursue her once more
This time, there were no girls calling her "whore"
She decided to give him another chance, hoping to not be lead on
Thinking with her heart, she felt nothing could go wrong
He spent much of his earnings to take her to a play
The type where they sing and dance the night away
From those days and forward, everything seemed perfect, and fine
He got up the courage and asked "Will you be mine?"
The way he did it was a little cheesy
He quoted a line from one of her favorite movies
They would talk for hours at a time, and spend time with each other whenever free
Together for a long while, she thought they'd be
Days went by with almost no problems
Her thoughts were filled all day with thoughts about him
She was sure he felt the same way too
A little too much, maybe, but who knew?
One day at school, the maiden's best friend came to her
There were some things she'd heard about her and her sir
She pleaded, "Is it true or not? Tell me! Oh,
What a wonderful caricature of intimacy!"
"What does it matter? This business was to stay between he and me
Not gossip for the everyone else to see,
Who did you hear this from? Please, this information I need!"
"I heard it from a friend, who heard it from a friend of he"
"Ridiculous!" she thought, "How dare him!"
That day and a couple more, she wanted to punish him
Eventually, of course, she realized it was just high school
She just lost her temper, but now she was cool
And everything was all right, no punishment was made
His stupid, idiot mistake, she soon forgave
Mistake number two, came soon after
The maiden awoke in the middle of the night
Like any normal teenager, she checked her MySpace without fright
Yes, MySpace existed even then
Corrupting our youth, breeding cowardly men
What did she find, from this boy so young of age?
A message, declaring how she did nothing for him except amaze
But stating, however, that there were things she did that he didn't like
Stating also, hurt her again -- he just might
He thought it'd be better to end it now
To be her friend still, he made a vow
Reading this, the maiden's heart broke into a million pieces
"Over MySpace," she thought, "He never had any respect for me.. Jesus!"
Immediately, she got in touch with him and asked him, "How?!
Please, oh please, don't do this now!
We have the holidays, prom, and so much more!"
She wept and wept until her body grew sore
"I heard this is because of another girl" and she gave her name
He said, "What?! No way! I like her, but she's never felt the same"
"You'll find someone better, cuter, smarter," her friends swore
"You're way too pretty, you can find someone worth so much more!"
"It doesn't matter, one of his friends told me
He had found someone with whom he'd rather be,
A kiss they shared, before we were officially done
My heart will never belong to anyone else -- NONE!"
"Do you know this to be true? It cannot be so!"
"It's true, more than one person told me so
A friend of his, a friend of hers, they let me know"
"Wow, wasn't she your friend? What a ho!"
"It's not all her fault, friend of mine or not, she's not solely to blame"
"Oh, whatever! Give me her name!"
"That I cannot do, not even a clue
While she is still so young and desperate for attention,
Her name I refuse to mention
Besides, it's much better to face these kinds of things with a sense of poise and rationality
It's been proven: I have a strong mentality"
"Fine," said the friend, "What did he have to say?"
The maiden told her of that night she pleaded with him to not leave her this way
When she confronted him with his lying, he had nothing to say
He has not apologized to this very day.
Instead, he tells everyone that she is crazy
Is he mad? Or his memory a little hazy?
For it was he who cheated, who hurt her, who left her devastated to cry
Still, he would not admit to his frivolous lie
She asked, "What have I done? How did I hurt you in any way,
The way you are treating me, I do not deserve, even on my worst day"
"Nothing," he replies, "You've done nothing at all"
"So why must you humiliate me, when I try to stand tall?"
"I don't know," is all he could give her, from deep inside his selfish soul
"Then just STOP," she yelled, and left him there to his hell-hole
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So.
I got broken up with through MySpace, you know.
So i was all wah wah wah emo.
A friend of this now ex-boyfriend told me it was because of another certain girl, Angela Erickson to be exact.
So i asked my now ex-boyfriend if the end of our relationship had anything to do with her.
Aaand he told me no.
So... being the trusting.. GULLIBLE person that i am, believed him.
And here i am a couple of hours later..
And another more than reliable source tells me that my then boyfriend had kissed, basically cheated on me, with the earlier mentioned girl.
Haaaahahahaha...
Isn't that halarious?
Really. Isn't it?
What's even more funny is that his other ex-girlfriend, who i am 99% sure is Xanga user psychopyro18... searched for "teresa rosales" on the Xanga search engine.. and got to my xanga.
HAAAAHAHAHA...
Feedback logs are tiiiight.
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So there's this boy in my grade who i actually had interest in. Someone MY age, who is in the same grade, at the same school; who is pretty damn cute, who is athletic, who likes good music. I'd talk to this person a few times on line, via MySpace // AIM. And i thought we.. clicked, or whatever. Like, we had some kind of connection, not like mushy omfgz i'm going to marry you... but like, hey wow we have some similarities and make each other laugh ..
A good friend of mine is also good friends with this boy.. so that was kind of cool. He told me that this boy thought i was 'hot', pretty, cute, attractive etc.. whatever. SO that was really cool too!
So we finally talked a couple of times at school, and that was cool.
So why did like... about twenty minutes ago... my good friend tell me that this boy said uhh...
That i'm too smart for him. HAHA. TERESA. TOO SMART. FOR SOME GUY.. i mean, boy.
I had tears in my eyes. Not because i'm in love with this kid and am all butthurt, fuck that, lol. But because that is SO sad. It's so sad!
I would never think that having and using my brain would come with punishments...
Also, i guess i'm "serious."
Okay, of course i am sometimes, when the time calls for it.
But... GIVE ME A BREAK. When am i not laughing or being an idiot?
When i'm bitching about lameass boys.
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Me (10:09:03 PM): HAHA
Me (10:09:04 PM): Okay
Me(10:09:08 PM): MY brother is still in elementary school
Me (10:09:14 PM): And all those teachers loved me, and know he's my brother etc..
Me (10:09:18 PM): He was just telling me that like today
Me (10:09:33 PM): My fourth grade teacher [i'm now a jr.] asked him if i went to the FAmily Values tour
Me (10:09:39 PM): And he was like yeah
Psst Hey Barry (10:09:42 PM): hahahaha
Me (10:09:44 PM): And she said She always was a Korn head!!!
Psst Hey Barry (10:09:52 PM): WTF hahaha
Me (10:09:55 PM): aHAHAHAH
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So today was pleasant! I decided to reward myself with adequate blog time, lol, BECAUSE -- I just read ALL of chapter 7 for APUSH AND TOOK NOTES!
Today i failed my SECOND Zoology quiz with flying colors. But it's okay, because Sara did too! And that makes me feel better, even though it shouldn't.
Today was also rainy and i loved it. I love rainy days. I love rain! I love gloomy days, especially today, because it didn't match my mood. (: School was freaking freezing today. It was "Toon Tuesday" aaand i didn't have time this weekend to put together any outfits for spirit week, so i just wore my Inuyasha shirt. (:
Yesterday was okay too, i suppose. I don't really remember.
I got just a few hours of sleep because i got home at 1:30am from --
THE FAMILY VALUES TOUR!
[aka one of the best days of my life]
But i digress... because i need to talk about Saturday before i get into this day of holy greatness.
Saturday, I don't remember what I did really... oh YEAH! I had to be at work at 10.30am to work a banquet. But i didn't mind, it's good money! AND i was working it with Kelso AND Mayra! HAha, weird. Sooo i offered to take Mayra's shift for that evening too. I got clocked out at like 5.20 from the banquet, and clocked back in around 5.40... and didn't get out until almost ten! Sooo... i definitely almost worked twelve hours with hardly any break. Illegal? You bet. Expected? For sure. I'm Mexican. Let all the other little white kids get their breaks as soon as they're supposed to take them.. [I'm half-kidding... but i'm half not!]
ANYWAY, during my break, I called Joe to confirm our plays for the following day.. because you see, we supposedly won two PIT tickets on ebay, for $120.
So the conversation goes like this..
Hey! What's going on?
Not much...
Okay... ssoo what's the plan for tomorrow?!?! [[extremely excited]]
Oh.. uhm.. i can't go tomorrow... [[something similar]]
WHAT?!?!?
Yeah... i couldn't get my car up here..
Uhhmm... Joe Daugherty, were you freaking planning on TELLING me this?!?!?!
Yeah...
UH WHEN, TOMORROW?!?!?
Yeeahh...
.......
*Teresa hangs up*
Oh. My. GOD.
I have never been more devestated in my LIFE. I was more devestated than when the douche broke up with me, hahaha. Seriously.
I started crying, haha. Now i KNOW why he's my ex-boyfriend.
Anyway, i was crying my face off, there at work... and everyone was all aahh what's wrong?!?!
And so to make a longer story short..
Wayne got out his credit card.. and had Mary [Yoder?] get on Ticketmaster.com and buy and print out two tickets for me! Isn't he the most amazing guy ever? He is like my father and i love him to death.
So to make another long story short, Joe from work went with me.
Sunday, August 10
Family Values Tour
I got up around nine-ish.. and started diligently doing homework so i wouldn't have to worry about it later. Needless to say, i didn't get much done, haha. Around 11, i started to get ready. A little after noon, i went to get gas and to get Joe, because i offered to drive since i asked him at the very last minute to go... and because his car was stolen last week. ):
We got there at a good time, got in, i bought a tour shirt... a girl size, so OF FREAKING COURSE it doesn't have the dates on the back, but oh well. The shirt was $35. Okay.
Then i spent $20, once again, on a Korn CD i already have... to meet "the band" [which ended up being only Fieldy --no complaints here!]. I also spent $15 on a pre-order coupon thing for the Deftones' new CD and to meet them as well.
Then Joe and i went and found us lovely seats in the lawn.
First band was Walls of Jericho. I saw them at Ozzfest, and i enjoyed them very much. They were signing after their set, so i left Joe and went to go do that.
Meanwhile, I missed Bullets and Octane which i didn't mind, because Joe said they sucked.
I got back and they were setting up for DEADSY!!!! They played a few new songs, that I didn't enjoy very much. They played Key to Grammercy Park, Flowing Glower [that was unexpexted], Tom Sawyer and Le Cirque En Rose -- from Commencement, which i DID enjoy a lot! They didn't play the cover of Paint it Black that i've been hearing a lot about, so that made me sad.
THEY WERE ALSO SIGNING -for FREE- AFTER THEIR SET!
Haha, so again, i left Joe and went to meet Deadsy! Ughhh... i love them so much. It was my second time seeing them and although they played a shorter set than that first time [Tour with No Name; korndeadsymuddleofpud].. it was almost just as good 'cause you could actaully HEAR Elijah this time. (:
So i went through the line and met them all... they were all really friendly! I told every single one of them thaty had to come back soon, to a smaller venue, lol. Carlton was so adorable. And Creature "bled" [it was his fake, stage blood] on my poster and me, haha. He was like Oops! Where'd THAT come from! Haha, it was funny.. i promise. :P
Sooo i got back, aaaand.. of COURSE, i missed Dir en Grey's entire set. I was pretty upset about that. ):
They started setting up for 10 Years. Joe and i got comfortable on the grass. 10 Years. Pft. Can you say t'3h LAME?!?! Ughh... i was familiar with that one song that comes on the radio, but i wanted to shoot myself. What a Tool rip-off. I was afraid Chino might actually have him sing Passenger with him!
So some time after this... around 5.30 i went to meet "Korn."
I got in line, which was already kind of long. I heard some of the security people saying it was just going to be Fieldy, but hell, i didn't care! I'd never met him before [I've met Jonathan and James] so i was beyond stoked :D
So i waited and waited.. and FINALLY! HE CAME OUT! EEEe, i was overcome with sooo much emotion, i just... ugh!
It was so awesome, he was signing AND taking pictures with EVERYONE!
By the time I got to him, my heart was beating just about out of my chest, and i kept tearing up... I handed my phone to the guy who was taking the pictures.. anad walked up to Fieldy and as he started signing my shirt, tears started streaming down my face... [haha, mock me if you must!] and i was like Thank you SO much for doing what you do... you guys have saved my life. And he was like Really?? And he waved the camera guy over and like the camera guy stuck the camera in my face and i was crying, and HE HUGGED ME! And he looked at the camera and said You hear that?? We saved her life! And he signed my shirt, and another promo t hing, and i took a picture with him.. and of COURSE it came out SHITtacular! But anyway, I got to meet Mr. Arvizu for the first time and that was amazing, and he was so fucking nice and now i must meet Brian and David and my life will be complete.
Anyway, Dave had text me so i was like BUY ME BEER!
Haha, i met up with him during Flyleaf, who of course suck ass too. Joe and I were having fun making fun of the chick. What a douche.
Anyway, Dave = beer = LOWER pavillion tickets!
He had two that he wasn't going to use, so he gave them to Joe and me! That was awesome. I love Dave. He is my favorite manager of all timeszz.
So after Lameleaf, was Stone Sour, and we were in the lower pavillion! Thank GOODNESS, because that's when all the sod throwing started.
It was like that at i think Project Revolution, in '04.. when Korn was there, haha. But again, i was in the lower pavillion so it didn't bug me.
Stone Sour were good. I called Jaime during Get Inside and KT during Bother.
Get Inside has and always will be my favorite Stone Sour song, and it will forever remind me of Harvey. :P
Then..
then.. THEN!!!!!!!!
DEFTONES!!!
Haha, ssooo i'm pretty sure i was the most ecstatic person in the whole venue. And it kinda sucked that i was in pavillion... when all along i thought i'd be on the rail, in the pit.. close to Chino.. and for that, I hate Joe right now...
Anyway, they didn't play Knife Party, so i couldn't call Kelso. I called Jaime during Change.
And oh my GOD..
When they played..
PASSENGER!!!!
I thought i was going to die. Seriously. It didn't even MATTER that Maynard wasn't there. It was SO amazing. Sssooo amazing. I just wanted to cry and die and everything at the same time, lol.
Rx Queen was superb too. [It just came on my Winamp, aww <333]
So they were everything and more, than i thought they would be! I loved them. I wish I could have called JV, but i'm sure by now he's long forgotten me.
So as i mentioned earlier, i bought a wristband to meet the band, so right after the set, i went [with a new found friend, who was in the row behind us] to the FYE tent to meet and greet them!
Okay, so i'm waiting line... waiting... waiting... it's 9.30 and they were supposed to have been there... Joe [who i went with] calls me... i haer screaming... ohhh FUCK!!! Korn had started playing.
Oh. My. GOD. I was so torn! I had no idea what to do.. I debated and debated... Seeing Korn for the fifth time, first time without Head... Meeting Deftones, which i don't know when i'll ever get the chance to again...
I had to remember my priorities, and i sold my wristband to some lucky girl, for ten bucks. And ran back to the pavillion and missed their first song. [Crystal told me it was Make Me Bad]
So..
KORN!
I was very apprehensive about seeing them, i'm not going to lie. That was only because this was my first time seeing them live, without Head.. and with all those ridiculous people in masks.
Nonetheless, they of course were amazing. They always put on an amazing show.
I was a little sad that they played as many songs from TALITM/SYOTOS as they did...
They didn't play FAGET! That was horribly disturbing to me... every single time i've seen them they've ALWAYS played Faget, Clown, Chi [with Twist], Somebody Someone... and they didn't play any of those. I couldn't believe it! they played like ALL singles.
They didn't play Trash either. ): Idk... I love Korn still, no doubt. But i... i don't know. It just kind of sucks that they're going in this no direction, all these poppy manufactued songs that i can't help but love 'cause it's KORN!
I wish they would have played One too... I was mad they played Ya'll Want a Single... worst Korn song ever, sorry.
I love being a long-time, die-hard Korn fan. Lol, it gives me meaning in life. :P HOWEVER, i did start liking them right before they blew up, in '97-'98 or so... it's not like i'm super old school like other people who are cooler than me. :P NONETHELESS -- I will always be a Korn Kid... I don't care what i say, or how i complain about anything post-Untouchables.
OHOHOHOH!!! They definitely did WICKEDDDDD with Chino! That was beyong amazing, lol. Ughhh... not many people knew wtf was going on and that made me sad... but.. i didn't care. I "rapped" along every word. And the part where Chino says Listen from the flow from a soul fro'ed caucasion... He said Latino! HAha, yeahh reppin'!
So.. "Wicked" is tied for best part of the set with when they did HOLLOW LIFE -- ACOUSTIC! I already knew they were going to do this, because i had been looking up their set lists.. but out of nowhere, they just popped up in like the middle of the pavillion! Everyone like rushed it, lol but i stayed where i was and just stood on my chair.
They ended with Blind, and that was cool. Then they proceeded to throw pics, drum sticks etc.. off into the crowd, and of course, being in the pavillion, nothing came freaking close. So once again, I was pretty irate thinking about how I should have been in the PIT.. but you know WHO.. had to be a you know WHAT... Ughhh... anyway.
It was amazing.
Family Values '06 was fantastic.
I was supposed to go in '98, i think. Maybe '99. But the floor was sold out the day my mom went to buy tickets. Regardless, Sunday was an amazing day in my life!
It was also my friend Crystal's first time seeing Korn, so that made it more special! <3
Last Friday was the WC game.. if you can call it that. Oh well, i had fun with Fidd.
It was also Jaime's birthday. I got him a pyramid studded belt and an A7X notebook/folder. I'm taking him to the Rathskeller for dinner some time this week also.
Thursday was that dreaded day. But really, i was okay. I handled it so well and i'm so proud of myself, for being stronger. I went to get my check after school, went to the mall to buy Jaime's stuff, and went the cemetery. And i was okay the whole time.
Except when my mom called and pretty much had forgotten was the day was. I was so hurt. But whatever.
This was maaad long, and i DON't apologize but i probably won't update for like two weeks, lol, so leave me lovely comments. <3
Haha, and i'm pretty sure i have a crush on a sophomore.
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I can't believe tomorrow will be THREE years.
I can't believe it's been that long.
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oo like morphine (10:15:06 PM): I'm so like
oo like morphine (10:15:12 PM): I don't know, emo hahaha
RandomHodge (10:15:41 PM): i have my emo moods sometimes
oo like morphine (10:15:47 PM): It just sucks lol
oo like morphine (10:15:53 PM): And i feel so lame for feeling this way
RandomHodge (10:17:41 PM): yeah, i know how you feel
oo like morphine (10:17:57 PM): 
RandomHodge (10:18:00 PM): i'll be upset about something stupid and feel stupid about feeling that way which makes it worse
oo like morphine (10:18:06 PM): Lol
oo like morphine (10:18:13 PM): I'm not really upset about anything in particular
oo like morphine (10:18:16 PM): I just feel really lonely
oo like morphine (10:18:23 PM): It's so pathetic
oo like morphine (10:18:33 PM): I need a guy to make me feel complete
oo like morphine (10:18:39 PM): It's so sad and i hate it
oo like morphine (10:19:02 PM): ANd then the girl i call my 'best friend' is SO far from that
oo like morphine (10:19:18 PM): She's nothing of a best friend to me 98% of the time and ii get so mad, and i just want to cut her off
oo like morphine (10:19:25 PM): But then i feel like, then who do i have?
RandomHodge (10:19:44 PM): yeah, i feel the same way as you sometimes
RandomHodge (10:20:06 PM): i feel like that with some of my friends
oo like morphine (10:20:18 PM): And like, i have other friends, i have a lot of friends.. but i feel like i have no one to depend on, i don't have that best friend who calls you everyday jsut to say what's up or talk about what you did that day
RandomHodge (10:20:20 PM): not my best friend.. but some of them i just want to cut off sometimes
oo like morphine (10:21:02 PM): Idk..
oo like morphine (10:21:20 PM): I just want someone to want me the way that i want them
RandomHodge (10:21:40 PM): i used to feel like that all the time
oo like morphine (10:21:53 PM): I do feel like that all the time.
RandomHodge (10:21:57 PM): but after awhile i just kind of.. got used to it
oo like morphine (10:22:06 PM): I would think i would have by now.
RandomHodge (10:22:22 PM): it took me a long time
oo like morphine (10:22:31 PM): But i just want to know why she is like that
oo like morphine (10:22:33 PM): Why is she so fake[ish]?
oo like morphine (10:23:00 PM): the other girl who is her "other best friend" hates me... because im' also her best friend.
oo like morphine (10:23:13 PM): Her other 'best friend' treats her like crap, she's not very respectful to her
oo like morphine (10:23:15 PM): And she just takes it
oo like morphine (10:23:34 PM): I can't stand seeing this girl who is supposed to be my bset friend, be punked around.
oo like morphine (10:24:32 PM): And then... now she hangs out with my old bestbestbest friend who i just happned to be in love with.. and acts like it's okay. But when i'm complaining about another person who does the same thing she's all on my side "Yeah, that's not right of her!" I mean, can you say hypocrite.
RandomHodge (10:25:06 PM): i hate hypocracy
oo like morphine (10:25:10 PM): And i understand that you pretty much have no idea what or whom i'm talking about but i just really need to get it out.
RandomHodge (10:26:12 PM): that's fine
RandomHodge (10:26:14 PM): i'm listening
RandomHodge (10:26:21 PM): i'm just not really good at giving advice or anything
oo like morphine (10:26:28 PM): And like, she never tries to do anything with me. And when we do, it's because i ask or mention something... and that was before i got in the accident,when i had a car.
oo like morphine (10:27:27 PM): And like... i went out for soccer, for this girl. I had other plans.. i wanted to rnu cross country. But no.. i went to all the practicse we could... and then got CUT from the team, just because she wanted me to play with her, so she wouldn't be alone... when there were people on the team, people who don't even like me, who were more than friendly to her.
oo like morphine (10:28:33 PM): And THAT, Stephen, is one of the many things that is bugging me right now.
UGH and there's so much more i can say on that subject but i already feel like a big enough bitch so i'm not going to. I shouldn't even have to feel bitchy, because i state no lies. I speak only of the truth. Say what you want to fucking say, but i don't lie. And i'll probably end up editing this as soon as i post it.
I feel a lot better after that conversation though.
So now i shall fill you in on everything else -- or just the weekend..
Viernes
I'm sure school was extremely lame.
I went to work at five; got out at seven. Came home, changed. Went to the game.
I saw Robert Glen and that made me really happy! I walked in and talked with him.. then i went to find Fidd. I found Brian and her, in the student section and squeezed in. The game was all right, i wasn't paying too much attention to it... but the student section was pretty funny.. and slightly obnoxious.
One thing that bugged me... there were two people there, acting buddy buddy. It really bugged me.. and Laura, and Brian... because i know I've personally been in the presence of one of these people, while they were talking about that other person. About how much they can't stand them, how annoying they are, how if they say another word they're going to go off on them etc...
But at the game, yeah, lol... they were all buddybuddy. It really, really confused me... considering this person has always articulated their despise of the other.
I guess we came to the conclusion that said guilty person needed a ride to the game.
AAAANYWAY, after the game ended, I found Joe. I went with him, Todd, Shane [aawkward] and Hardy [also aaaawkward] to fifth quarter. Lol, luckily i didn't pay for myself to get in.. because that would have been a dollar badly, badly spent. Why does fifth quarter suck so much now? I thought it wasso much fun freshman year.
Needless to say, we didn't stay long. All that awkwardness didn't last long at all either. I got apologies and i accepted them graciously.
So we made a few stops and made our way to Marion... for my first college parties! Lol. It was quite... interesting. I got pretty wasted and Shane and Joe broguht me home around two, and i went to bed.
Sabado
Uhm.. i don't really remember what i did. I'm sure i got up and cleaned the house... man, i really don't fucking rememer what I did on Saturday..ughh.. Whatever.
I went into work at five, i closed.. and was there until about.. uhm, ten or ten-thirty. When i got out, Joe had called me.. so i went to Zach's to watch the rest of the ND game with them and Keith. Then Todd and Dustin came over.. and after the game i went home and not sure what they did.
Domingo [Ayer]
Woke up, started the tarea... went to eat lunch at Denny's with mom and Jaime.. went grocery shopping, came home and then went to work at four. Work went by kinda fast.. unexpectedly fast for a Sunday. It was slightly busy.. it was WEIRD! I got to do the sidewalk board for the week, though! So you should all go by the Rathskeller and check out the cool sign on the sidewalk, that i did!
I didn't get out until right after nine, and that was really weird... for a SUNDAY! Lame. I called Joe and he and all the guys were on their way downtown for Rib Fest... ssoo they came by and got me... and we went to Military Park. Hootie and the Blowfish were about half way through their set and that was lame, but i got to see HOOOLD MYYY HAAAAND.
Then we were going to go do who knows what but i didn't want to drive by myself, so i decided to go home. Right when i got on Washington street, Joe from work called and asked me to go hang out at the Chatterbox. Lol, i was a little scared but there was no one carding or anything so yeah... that was really cool. And one of his friends is a bartender so yeah.. he was buying me drinks and that was fun. I didn't stay long. I got pulled over, and fuuuuck was i scared. I don't remember exactly what happened, but i know he said my license plate was funny [that was why he pulled me over]; he said it looked like someone hadwritten on it [remember -- i just got a new car] Holy crap, i really don't know how i pulled through on that one... i was SO scared. :'(
Hoy [Lunes]
I finished up the homework and DIDN'T study for APUSH. It's so depressing... I had this whole day set aside just to read all the chapters and study.. and i definitely did not... Ughhh.. I suck at life and everything that goes along with it.
I took Jaime to the mall.. and returned my Gir zip-up hoodie that i've had for over a month and have never worn. Then i went to Hollister and talked to LoTo for a while. Then i came home, watched the news, tried to study, took a nap and wathced hella Lifetime movies... oh yeah, and sat around in an emo mood.
Joe [not from work] placed a bid on some pit tickets for Family Values, for us, on ebay last week! We're winning so far, at $120 for both... so that's awesome. I hope my mom will not be a d-bag and let me go. If so...
SIX DAYS until Deftones, Korn [5th time], Deadsy [2nd] and Stonr Sour [they're first CD doesn't totally blow]!
In other news, I've been giving this new Korn a big, open-minded chance.. and i'm really starting to like it. "Comding Undone" doesn't annoy the fuck out of me anymore. Chea.
-> The [Just to say they never left me] End.
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First things first...
Between the hours of five and seven this evening...
My mom and I looked at, inspected carefully, test drove, signed some papers and wrote a couple of checks for this --
2001, Maroon-ish, four door Alero. (:
It has 86k miles on it and it's in pretty much perfect condition except for a kiiinda yucky scratch on the bumper, which they're going to take care of for us on Friday! (:
The price was $8,000 NOT including tax.
My mom, bein' the hustla she is, got them to go down to $7,000 including the tax. (:
I'm extremely elated right now. Really. I pretty much have my life back! It was so fucking awesome to get to drive home [not in a truck], in MY OWN car, listening to Where You Want to Be. :D >le sigh<
&please, save me your sob story. I KNOW i'm lucky -- don't be mad because your 'first, second, third etc..' car was a shitter. I KNOW i am very fortunate, don't try to rain on my god damn parade. (:
Secondly, my I have a new [AIM] screen name. I hate random people IMing me all the time, or just douchebags trying to keep tabs on me so... if you want it, leave me yours and I'll IM you; or send me a messege! (:
Third --
I wouldn't say i'm becoming heartless, but i am getting stronger.
Break up with me for no reason -- 'cause you're not "good enough" for me? Fine. Your loss, dude. One day, probably not for a long time, you'll realize how much of a jerk you were and how much you mislead me and deceived me and hurt my feelings. But really, just know that i do care about you a lot, despite all your lameness and what everyone else says about you.
Pick and choose when you want to be my 'best friend,' hardly ACT like your my best friend, don't know what's going on in my life? Fiiiine! I'll still be here when you need me, but eventually your shady friendness will catch up with you.
Make out and pretty much do the love of my life when you're supposed to be my best friend, bail on me more than once on summer plans, then have the AUDACITY to act like I ever did or said anything wrong or out of line to/about you? Haha, go for it. You're not as cool as you think; i don't care who you hang out with. I was and still want to be an amazing friend to you, despite how shittily you've treated me. And if you're reading this, i know you care about me too.
Be a wonderful, caring friend, care and wonder what's going on in my life, take time out of your oh so hectic day to see how i'm doing? You're freaking amazing and please stay that way. YOU ARE what's making me stronger.
Fourth --
I'm only going to Homecoming if i'm on the court, which i doubt i will be. Anyway, if i DO go, i'm going to need a date. GREEEEEEEAT!
Like i say in pretty much every entry --
If i said something to offend you or get to you; it's probably because it's true. So. Get over yourself. (: And i probably love you, regardless!
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Hoy 8.16
- was all right. It seemed to go way slower than any other day of school so far...
I pretty much bombed our APUSH quiz. I actually understood Calculus, and have for the past couple of days! Buut we have a quiz tomorrow that i'll probably fail. Lunch... i liked it better today. I sat with Brion, Deion, Sierra and the other girl in my Zoology class -- i keep forgetting her name and i feel like an a-hole; i'm so horrible with names. Daniel actually sat with us today too -- i'm not sure why.. but it was nice. (: Derek left me and that crushed my soul. :P
The only thing i don't like about sitting with ^^ is that someone always has to say unneccessary things... and only to me. I don't know what i did and i know he's only "playing" but fuck, it's rather... i don't know uhm -- discomforting? Like i said, i'm the only person who receives it. Anyway, he should know i'm talking about him. :P <3
Zoology.. ughh, all he does is talk and talk... he reminds me of Mr. Jenkins!
Spanish is lame too... but to motivate myself... i just remind myself that they're easy grade-weighted A's. :P
English quiz = EASY! We got our pictures taken. My ID is all right -- my teeth look maaaad white and i love it. (:
Ayer 8.15
-- was i-don't-really-remember.
I remember having to call MS. OCHOULE AGI to come pick me up in the morning because freaking Ryan decided not to go to school and call me like at a quarter til' seven! So she came to pick me up and i owe her big time -- she deffinitely left for Evansville today. ): I LOVE YOU, OCHOULE!
Sara took me home -- she also got switched into two my classes; Zoology and English... so that's cool. >Gasp< Maybe we'll actually talk now.. not much, i'm sure but hey, i've tried and i guess i've been... quitted.
After school, i came home and actually did homework. It's so weird, i'm not used to it at all.. every year, every season.. for the past... since... sixth grade, i've had a sport every season. But now.. yeah.
After my homework was mostly finished, i actually got to go HANG OUT WITH MY BOYFRIEND! So that was great. (: We got in the pool, but not really.. i didn't want my hair to get wet 'cause pictures today... and i'm lame. And when i tried to walk around in the pool, my tape was coming off my toe, ahaha.
Lunes 8.14
Yeah, i don't remember.
Domingo 8.13
-- was my mommy's birthday! I got up.. and without Jaime's help.. cleaned the house for her. It was quite hard.. it wasn't until later Sunday that i could actually start to walk somewhat normal again. HHhmmm... we were supposed to go see a movie but never did. I took her [and Jaime] out for lunch. I reaaaaaally wanted Rathskeller food but it was closed for Dan's wedding. Ssoo we went to Friday's. Then we went to the mall annd i got some jeans and.. a shirt i think from Hollister. Then we went grocery shopping and yep.
Sabado 8.12
Went with my mom to get her hair done and then we went to the mall... and I FORGOT GEN CON WAS THIS WEEKEND!!! I was ssooo mad. I wanted to go SO bad and i wanted to take Jaime. ): But oh well, so yeah we went to Circle Centre... and my mom actually bought me something! (: She got me a shirt from A&F. Then she got her make-up done at the Bobbi Brown thing... ughh let me just say they have the most AMAZING eyeliner that i need to go back and get. I love that eyeliner you put on with the angled brush... ugh, love it. I bought the most amazing MAC eyeshadow as well. (: Amazing. Orgasm for your eyes. :P
I didn't do anything this night and was extremely pissed. Joe offered to take me shopping for my mom and then to hang out... but i said naaahhh because i was expecting to hang out with my boyfriend because the night before he deffinitely told me he wanted to hang out with me Saturday night... and yeah, well... we deffinitely DIDN'T hang out Saturday night.
I don't know sometimes..
I really want to rant.
But
I've learned that doing that on here isn't the smartest thing, so if you'd like to listen, please let me know... because this school year has been proving to me already who my true//reliable friends are... and aren't.
I don't want to end this on a negative note so --
I don't know why... i've loved them for such a long time... but i've recently had this infatuation with Depeche Mode's Enjoy the Silence. It's so wonderful and just... i don't know. It's one of those songs that just... makes you feel.. weird?
[Some of my other "those" songs would be Plug-In Baby by Muse and Little Sister by Queen of the Stoneage]
 My face is a little mishapen looking but i still like it. (: ? Post A Comment
 Trying to pass the time in Hell -- err, cheer camp. ? Post A Comment I look a little - ehhh... but please, take in Amanda's perfection x33 ? Post A Comment Only Nick [of 311] can make me smile like that.. ? Post A Comment Flattering? Hell naw. :P gangSTAR? All the way. 8) ? Post A Comment
For now -- i'm off to make some toast :D and to read some of ch. 2 for APUSH... and to watch the new, horrible, UGLY season of Laguna Beach! (:
-> The [Is here, in my arms] End.
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Needless to say my past week has been very... shitty.. and uneventful... well, not really that but yeah.</span>
I've been in need of an update for a long-ass time so i guess i'll start where i left off..
Friday, 7/28
Warped Tour
Well, i started my period about ten minutes before Peter was on his way to get me. So, that sucked... a lot. I was so uncomfortable like the first part of the morning.. and to make the day even worst - for SOME reason - we had to follow his friends around all. day.
I told Peter... the day before.. that i didn't want to be left out, i didn't want to be the only one not in the little "group" or whatever... and he said it wouldn't happen. Hah. That's pretty much what happened. So i was pretty shitty about that. All they wanted to do was stand around and talk and stand in the back of the crowd and blah blah... Sorry. But i'm a concert person... i go to concerts for the MUSIC.. not to sit around on a bench and talk for an hour. So eventually [one of the times they were standing in a little circle that i was not in] I just walked away and Sam [Monroe] found me. (: And i hung out with him, Loto, B Ridge and new wonderful people that I got to meet by the names of - Khristina, Damon and Jimmy James! (:
Uhhmm then later on Peter was basically like Well, WE'RE leaving now sooo if you don't want to leave i guesss i could come back and get you.
That was it for me. I was so pissed off. YOU DON'T INVITE SOMEONE SOMEWHERE -- MAKE THEM FEEL LEFT OUT ALL DAY WITH YOUR FRIENDS -- THEN LEAVE THEM THERE. I really wanted to punch him. I just told him to fucking leave and I'd find a ride. Ugh. So pissed off. I pretty much hate him now. What a douchebag. And i know the rest of this night he and his little homeschool freak friends were probably talking about me, making ME the bad person... but whatever. Lame.
After the shoe, Sam, me & crew found a Denny's. :D Amazing. Then we went to Damon's and then yeah.
All in all -- Warped Tour is NOT all that. There were WAY too many bands I wanted to see and they were all playing at the same times. I was one person from the rail durnig AFI and couldn't even enjoy their set because there was so many crowd surfers. Who crowd surfs during AFI?! Yeah.
For Motion City i DID get on the rail -- still couldn't enjoy their set because the security guard decided to stand on the little thing in front of me with his dick in my face the whole time.
I crowd surfed, for my first time, during Rise Against.
Thursday played last and i was highly dissapointed... because they didn't even play my most favoritest song EVAR -- Cross Out the Eyes. :'( I did meet the most gorgeous i've ever seen in my life. His name was Aaron [which made if even better] and he had the most amazing eyes and he was just WOW. He and his friedns were from Ft. Wayne.. yikes, lol.
Basically, Warped Tour pretty much sucks and i don't think i'll ever go again -- unless someone buys my ticket. (:
Last week, I hung out with Schuyler quite a bit and that was awesome. It was great to just like... be around him again because he always used to make me feel so wondeful..
Wednesday, 8/3
Cute without the E [I got cut from the soccer team]
</font>Bittersweet... because i didn't have to finish out the week of two-a-days and i could run xc.. and work more and NOT have to do track clean-up... but then again... I had never been extremely passionate about soccer.. and this year, i was so pumped. So READY. Especially since Jordan would be with me and i would actually have a good friend on the team and not always feel isolated [freshman year]. But yeah. That sucks. Jordan got cut too and that sucks also.
Thursday, 8/4
RIP '01 Alero
I hung out with Schuyler.. we got back to his house later in the afternoon and decided to swimmm... so i went to get Jordan. Got back to his house, swam and on the way home... We got into a baddddddddd accident. It was... horrible. I already made a blog/Xanga about it... and no one seemed to care. ;) Haha yeah right -- you know there were the nice people, then you know there always has to be the person who's an a-hole about it and has to make you feel even worst. But yeah, my car is gone. We got a little over $7000 back from the insurance so hopefully i'll have a new car soon.. I'd like another Alero. I miss mine terribly. I never realized how much i loved that car and how awesome i had it... but yeah, when you lose soemthing is OF COURSE when you realize that stuff.. I really miss it though. I loved my car. ): Now i have no way to get ANYWHERE. Ryan Soots [yeahhh we go all the way back to the SFE] has been giving me rides to and from school and i love him for it. It's so weird in the car with he and Adam.. 'cause we deff. go back to second grade, lol.
Sunday, 8/6
311, the Wailers, the Virgin Millionaires
& Schuyler.
Woke up and it was a normal Sunday. My mom didn't want me to head to the Lawn all early.. and i didn't want to drag Jose and Ryan out there 'cause they're not... dedicated concert folk like myself, lol. So i went to the Olive Garden for lunch and grocery shopping with my mom and Jaime.
When i got home, i called both of them and they made their way over. Ryan got here pretty quickly... and Jose took about an HOUR 'cause he got lost. :P Nnnoo, he couldn't ask Juan or me for directions to begin with... :P But he eventually got here and we made our way to the White River Lawn. It was so random, they just sat a big stage right there.. in the middle of the.. lawn, haha. It was cool though -- we got there around 5.30 and got second row. So i was pretty happy. I saw Brand-o there! I knew exactly where he'd be there -- on the rail, front and center. Aaaaand he was. :P
The Virgin Millionares were okay.. i recognized one song that i'd heard on x103. And so yeah, no one was too in to them and i felt bad.
The WAILERS... ohhh man. Jose and I were for sure in heaven. A-mazing. Just wow! Another one of those bands i never thought I'd see in my lifetime, lol. So glad I did though. (: Quite incredible.
Schuyler and his friends arrived right before...
311
Uhm, orgasmic. Enough said. Nick is waaay too sexy. Ugh. Amazing. They were too good for words, the set was really awesome too. Jose got a bunch of pictures and some video which i have yet to see.. but whatever. (: I got a couple of pictures on my phone and a video of them doing the drum thing. I thought it was funny they didn't play Love Song, haha. Aaand of course the show wouldn't have been complete without..
Only Nick [of 311] can make me smile like that..
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Later on this night, Schuyler and I became... offiicial? Weird. But yeah, i heart him like crazy. (:
Lol i think it's funny though because i was SO mad at myself for talking to him and hanging out with him and just being nice to him again... because i was deffinitely telling other girls to stay away from him because he'd break their hearts... and then.. this. Haha, so funny. But yeah, he makes me incredibly happy YAY! (:
Wednesday, 8/9
'Cause back in school, we are the leaders..
First day of school. JD gave me a ride. School went by ssoo fast. Homeroom this year isn't going to suck! I have it with Jenna Roth, Aly Rupe AND Prentice! (:!!! Anthony Sanchez is in there too... ssoo.. yess. :D
My schedule..
1/2 Web Design [Mrs Davidson]
3 AP US History [Mr Buck]
4 AP Calculus [Mrs Gramer -- yay!]
* almuerzo -- tres. with Fidd, Brion, Deion, Daniel, Alex, Jenna and Aly Rupe.. and pretty much EVERYONE [i don't sit with with all of them though x/3]
5 Zoology H [Mr Montgomery]
6 AP esanol IV [Mrs Lahr]
7 AP Lit/Comp [Mr Wells]
Mrs. D is cool. Mr. Buck seems a little... i don't know. Gramer was my pre-calc teacher and the best math teacher i've ever had. I love her. Mr. Montgomery.. well, i haven't got to meet him yet.
Mrs. Lahr is nice.. i had her all last year.. and will all this year.. and next year.. 'cause she's the only AP espanol teacher.
Mr. Wells... WELL... he seems like one of those try-to-hard-to-intimidate-you teachers and i hate that. Get over yourself.
All my classes are bearable, i have tons of friends in them.
After school, Ryan dropped Adam off then we went to pick up my check.. and went to cash it. (:
Thursday, 8/10
All my bones and joints are sore..
School started off fine...
On the way to the lunch line with Daniel... we were talking and talking, looking around... and he turned all of a sudden and i heard a SNAP. I tried to just walk it off and whine about it... but it kept hurting.. and hurting... i couldn't even concentrate on eating because it hurt so bad. Ssoo, i inhaled my PB&J and went to the nurse..
Let me just say -- i hate our nurses. We have the worst nurses ever. I deff. signed in and stood there for two minutes.. then finally sat down. When they FINALLY decided to acknowledge my breathing of their air... they weren't even too nice Uhm you need to come here and sign in... I did already and I can't even walk because my TOE IS BROKEN.
ARe you sure it's broken? Which one is it?
Yes, I'm sure. It's the one that's bruised and is twice the size of all the others.
Well, all we can do is give you ice, we can't giev you anything for pain.
Call my mom.
So i go lie down.. and when the new nurse finally comes back to talk to me, i tell her to call my mom NOW because she is on her lunch break.. so she goes and does whatever she was doing, i deff. heard her and the regular nurse sitting there bullshitting around for a while... so she comes back at 12:27.. We called your house blah blah.. what's your mom's cell?
Okay, CUNT did i NOT tell you a half hour ago to call her CELL phone NOW because she is on her break?! So at this point, i'm [not quite] bawling my face off from pain and being pissed off.
They couldn't get ahold of my mom. I wonder why? Oh yeah, like i told them, she was OFF HER BREAK NOW. Ughhh... so i kept calling my mom from my cell phone 'cause if she saw my number a bunch of times, she'd know something is wrong.
Luckily she called the school.. and after about an hour and a half after my toe was broken, she came to get me.
Took me to the hospital. They for sure charged us about a hundred bucks to tape my toe and tell me to take Ibuprophen. Why couldn't they do that at school? Oh yeah, because Ben Davis is adminstrated by a bunch of assholes. Yeah.
So, i missed school today - hence this entry. I have to work tonight.. and tomorrow.. and Sunday. We'll see how that goes.
For now, I need to wrap this up because Schuyler is coming over soon so yeah.
I'm sure i left a ton out. Oh well.
-> The [To break down these walls, we've built around ourselves] End.
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So Juan picked me up a little late [around 8:40], haha but whatever. We made it. Exchanged our vouchers for our </span>free tickets [THANK YOU, KELSEY!!!] and made our way in. OF COURSE as we were coming in someone was already playing but whatever. Made our way to the second stage.
We were second row for a while, but after 2 or 3 sets we were on the rail, with Joe and Ryan a few "rows" behind us. I don't remember the order of the bands but i'll say -
All That Remains, Between the Buried and Me and Strapping Young Lad were of COURSE amazing, as you all know.
Walls of Jericho and The Red Chord were all right.
Bad Acid Trip reminded me too much of SOAD which totally stole from their originality...
Full Blown Chaos and a Life Once Lost i wasn't fond of at all.
All though... i think it was the guitarist of A Life Once Lost that was blowing kisses at me etc.. hahaha, toooo funny.
I was really dissapointed by Bleeding Through, 'cause i was looking very forward to seeing them.
Norma Jean = OH. MY. GOD. Ugh, one of bands i wanted to see the most... and they were... EXEMPLARY! :D!!! Aaaa-mazing. Same for Unearth... and of course...
ATREYU!!!
We waited like five hours on the rail for them, and man. Wonderful. I was sad they only played two songs from Suicide Notes... It's my favorite CD of theirs and I think it's their best work buut what can you do...
[My security guard friend] Brad, of course, got me a pick (:
As soon as their set was done, i was amazed at how many people left the stage, Juan and me included. We just hopped the rail and i went to go find a disposable camera for when i met my doodz... but everyone seemed to be sold out...
So I made my way to the FYE tent to stand in line forever, but i got a free Monster. Then i met the guys of Atreyu... aaand i was dissapointed. They weren't very friendly. Don't get me wrong, they were nice. But not super like HEY WHAT'S UP? HOW ARE YOU? ENJOY THE SHOW? friendly... maybe it was 'cause i was towards the end of the line and they were tired... but i mean i had my swim suit top on.. and cheer shorts rolled like five times, haha.. and yeah. So if I could take back my fifteen bucks and not have met them -- deffinitely would. For sure.
So yeah, i met the not-so-friendly band Atreyu. Hopefully their "fame" isn't getting to their heads. Not to mention i missed BLS because of meeting godforsaken Atreyu.
After that, we got some free water, met up with Joe and Ryan again and found some good lawn seats. Very good ones!
Main stage was coooool... the guy and girl next to us were buying us beer [hey, sorry for my adults who i have high respect for -Ms. Squire- who read this; don't think less of me.. it's summer and i have less than 350 days til' i'm an adult <3] and that was wonderful. They were really nice, they were from Kentucky.
Dragonforce - OF COURSE - were wonderful, haha. They kilt it; English style.
Lacuna Coil - OF COURSE - sucked ass, haha. I hate them. They have no place at Ozzfest. Whatsoever. I was hoping that maybe seeing them live would give me a little more respect for them... but... They just SUCK. They need to break up. It didn't seem like anyone liked them except the fat gothy chicks. No one around us was standing up... the only time I respectfully clapped for them was for their Depeche Mode cover of Enjoy the Silence. Smartest move they could have made.
I'm mad i just took that much space and time to complain about them.
Psst Hey Barry (11:43:22 AM): hahaha I have evidance to the fat gothy chick statement
Psst Hey Barry (11:43:28 AM): First Comment onm their official myspace
Psst Hey Barry (11:43:30 AM): http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=17812088
Psst Hey Barry (11:43:36 AM): A FAT GOTHY CHICK
Hatebreed - Oh. My. GODDDDDD. I have been waiting so long to see them... and eeeeeeeee.. they were amaaaaaaazing.... saved the best [and my favorite] for last - I Will Be Heard. :D Ugh. Amazement. Pure amazement. (: Wonderful.
Around this time is where the alochol started flowing and Ryan, Joe and I were a little.. yeah.
Aveeenged Sevenfold!!! AHHHH!! I was so happy for Joe finally getting to see them... i screamed as many words as i could with him. (: They did a cover of Pantera's Walk.
I text Jiffy and told him they were playing... and he called and listened for like ten seconds, lol. I wanted to call Jaime but at this time he was prolly at GREAT AMERICAN BASH where i coulda been too!
Disturbed. I think this is where ol' dude and girl from Indianapolis come in. Eric and his friend. His lady friend asked me if i was single. I said yes. She said "my friend thinks you're hot" I said "cooooooool" ahaha 'cause i was well... yeah. We establish friendship with said people. Juan uses his wonderfull rolling skills aaaand we were in business. We had it all at this point, haha.
So yeah...
Psst Hey Barry: Distirbed makes my life sad
Psst Hey Barry: when Disturbed plays music
Psst Hey Barry: Babies drop dead
Haha, it wasn't like that for me last night! I was too gone to do anything but rock out hxc style. Sooo yeah, last night, Disturbed were good to me!
Then
Then then then
SOAD!!!!11ONNNE
UGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH....... Why are they so AMAZING??!?! Why why why why?!?!
They weren't on the big screen though so like i couldn't SEE them... but yeah. I don't remember much of anything but screaming every word, punching Ryan and dancing with random girls in front of me and rockin out yo and like shaking random people who wouldn't move.. and and maaaaaan... I don't think it could have been any better. It was wonderful. I know they played SUGAAAAAAAAAA last... and i was reminded of singing it with Fred and Ali in IT Media, haha. And I was reminded of fourth grade and Rock 107..
And that was the show.
Pros - amazing music, amazing bands, illegal substances, nice people willing to share it, nice people willing to buy it, new people, Juan driving there, meeting up with Ry and Joe, being hit on like a mothaaaa, hot doodzz hitting on me, having stage love made to me by a guitarist, haha.. A7X's Pantera cover, perfect weather, seeing Brad My Security Guard Friend!!! Yesterday was the fourth show he's been at with me (:!! AND he's going to be at Warped!
Cons - total boner neck from headbanging my face off at second stage, no camera, wasting $15 to meet Atreyu, my knee totally hurts now and i can hardly walk so i couldn't go to soccer this morning, no cute shirts, expensive food [i didn't eat all day], they wouldn't let you take even ONE bottle of water in [like they did at NIN]
For now that's all I can think of. So.
Comment this bad boy up 'cause it took me exactly an hour to make it, haha.
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I woke up at seven, went to put gas in my car then to Wyatt's. We got to the Murat at like 8:40. Tried to sleep, too uncofortable. Played some Scrabble. Other various friends showed up. Did a lot of nothing. Wyatt and I ordered a pizza. Schuyler was going to bring me some Yats but it was like right after we just ate >:(!!! This guy Roger came out and was talking to me.. since i work downtown he was asking what was around and blah blah.. He was apparently like an annoucer [turned out he was one of the cabaret//brigade people].
Doors opened, we went in. Got our place on the rail. Went to go buy two shirts -- a THS and a DD one. Amanda was standing inside the stage area and i got a picture with her and she loved my Punk Cabaret is Freedom tank. (:
Started talking to this guy who was next to me. Ahaha turns out he was the same guy who was next to me at NIN! And turns out he's pretty awesome! He looks EXACTLY like Ryan Blythe [haha, so yeah.. youKNOW he's gorgeous].. and he's half Philipino too! Haha. Anyway, so yeah.
The Hush Sound came out and they were wonderful! Amazing. Ol girl'.. Valerie? didn't seem to enthusiastic though... but i love their music and i'd love to see them again soon.
DRESDEN DOLLS
Ugh, nothing short of A-MAZING! Brian and Amanda are just... wow. It was so awesome. I traded shirts and held my tank up for them (: They didn't get boo-ed or anything, like i was afraid they might. They did play my song -- Coin-Operated Boy [ I called Michael ]. They didn't play Half-jack or Good Day. ): Mr. Urie came out and did a cover of Baby One More Time... with them. Their set was pretty short, and that sucked. I hope they come back -- SOON. Ugh. Amazing.
Panic! were good. Better than at Nintendo Fusion. But i mean, they have ONE CD and you already knew everything they were going to play... but that didn't stop me from screaming all the words. (: I was on the rail and there was this girl behind me who kept sticking her elbow in my back... and ya know, i don't care if people lean on me.. but i asked her nicely to not put her elbows in me blah blah.. aaha and she tried to get nasty with me. I like pushed her in the throat and she tried to retaliate and the security guard yelled at her and threatened to kick her out. Haha...
So yeah, Roger was one of the cabaret people on stage... he gave me a pick... lol, after the show he said it was fun performing "to me." 'Cause i kept yelling his name and stuff.
Uhhmmm as for all that brigade stuff... totally Dresden Dolls. Totally. I'm mad their trying to make it all them. But anyway, the girls they had on stage were pretty gorgeous. They looked like Suicide Girls.
Their cover of Karma Police was pleasant. Scott and I were singing along.. haha, it was funny that a lot of the kiddies didn't know.. yeah. Their cover of Tonight, Tonight was dissapointing.
Afterwards, Wyatt and I went outside by the Dolls' bus.
I set my stuff [two shirts] down to go talk to Brian [of DD, of course]... and then bam.
Gone.
Someone stole my THS and DD shirts. Two very cute shirts. $35 worth. Gone. Freaking GONE. I guess maybe - PERHAPS - i was irresponsible for leaving my stuff there, but oh my GOODNESS... i always try to have faith in mankind and i never can. I can't believe someone actually took my fucking shirts. My SHIRTS. ): I was thinking of maybe sending the band messages... and asking them to send me another, lol. Buuut... yeah. I just can't believe someone would do that. My THS shirt was drenched in sweat anyway 'cause i put it on when i took my tank off during DD.
So I talked to Brian along with Scott and his crew... he was very nice. Scott and his friends left but i asked about Amanda... and she was getting a massage and he said she would be about an hour... Brian gave me his markers in case she came out while we were still there! Sooo we waited and then got talk to her. She signed my tank toooo.. and i wrote Brian a thank you note for the markers... and yep.
Oh yeah, I met Brendon and Ryan of Panic! and they signed my ticket.
But yeah, Panic! are not all that. I love them. But they just aren't. So. Haha. Yeah. Get over it.
Pictures coming later, hopefully... from whoever i can get them from...
Jordin took a picture of me with Amanda! YAYY!
Ozzfest should be fun this Sunday. (: Even though i shall be missing WWE's Great American Bash -- that my mom bought tickets for Jaime and me to go to!! x/3
-> The [Dresden Dolls ARE] End.
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